"Have you gotten a clue of who purchased the shares I asked you to investigate?" He was already losing the authority of the Li Corporation, and he couldn't trace the person purchasing the shares discreetly. He really wanted to know if this person was his enemy or ally.
"I haven't gotten any information, everything is completely secret. I didn't know where else to search without a single clue." He drove him out of the mansion parking lot over to the streets before getting onto the highway.
He passed by the florist and picked up a wrapped bouquet of Chrysanthemum flowers and drove over to the cemetery. It wasn't the Qingming season yet, so it wasn't that eerily scary as it would have been at that time of night.
The secretary parked the car in a safe spot in the parking lot, and Li Feng got out of the car, walked through the gate, and over to the cemetery. He knew where he had built their tombstones; one was for his son, and the other was for Shen Ruyi. He placed the flowers on their tombstones, and you could see those sad and distant eyes gazing at those smiling pictures pasted on the surface of the tombstones.
He missed her so much; everything around the mansion reminds him of her and how heavily her absence has impacted their lives. Her absence was heavily felt, but they couldn't rewind time.
"If you were here, could things be different? Could the situation have turned a bit different.... If you were here, the kids would have grown up to be responsible men! Do you think I failed you as your fiancé and father? Why does it feel like these are the consequences of my decisions? What if that day I chose to stay by your side, would things have turned out differently?" He bent over and gently caressed that smiling face that was on the tombstone.
He doesn't recall much of their memories together apart from her doing her wifely duties. All he could recall was that they lived harmoniously, she rarely raised her voice at him, and she rarely got anything from him; he had failed her.... For five years, she was with him, but he doesn't recall anything he had done for her.
"If you hadn't decided to move back home that day, could things have turned out differently? Could Li Ren and Li Bo Yen have become different people?" He could no longer stay a minute without thinking of her and missing her presence every single moment. It was such a huge loss that he hadn't gotten over and probably would never with the way it had heavily impacted their lives.
Looking at that image of her less favoured son pinned on that tombstone, he felt bitter and pained. He blames himself for their deaths every single day. He couldn't even seek justice for them.
"Master, it's getting cold." Secretary Yu came over with an overcoat and laid it over his shoulders as he covered him. This wasn't the first time they were making a trip there. Whenever he was disturbed, he would drop by there, and slowly, it was becoming his only solace.
"Do you think they are punishing me? Do you think things could have turned out differently if I had stuck to her side and chosen her?" He loudly sighed, his eyes glistening with tears, but he couldn't bring himself to shed a single tear.
"They are gone, no amount of grieving can change that! You should look forward and move on." Secretary Yu was also sad, but they couldn't change the outcome of that incident; the living had to go on living.