It's been three years
Since the day I walked away from you.
Away from whom?
The one that I thought
That I'd give every day to.
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Back in 2020
Had they asked if I would walk away,
I would have laughed in their face,
and told them they were fucking crazy.
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It amazes me
How quickly time
Can bend around our hearts.
How that same amount of time
Can push the strongest love apart.
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And I remember all the times
I sat and stared at you from across the room...
The thought of losing you
Was more than enough
To fill my soul with doom...
And gloom...
And dread...
It was all in my head
It was all in my heart.
In all the words she said.
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And I swear
I meant all of the promises made.
But I no longer carry
The debt left unpaid.
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And I'll never regret
All the seeds that we laid
But the seasons will change,
And nostalgia will fade...
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It's okay.
It's been 1045 days.
When I look back,
I no longer think
"I should have stayed".
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I know I should have left
When you found those old texts.
When you stole my old phone.
When you went through my messages.
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Tested me...
I ate all of your pettiness
For breakfast.
Bought you that ring
That you were on your necklace...
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Through thick and thin
Girl, I gave you all of my bestest.
My best.
All the rest.
Even started a wedding guestlist...
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But fuck...
At the end of the day, I digress.
I will always love you.
I still wish you the best.
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Like...
You've changed me
And we know scars will never heal.
But I know that
Whatever love you did have
Was probably real.