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Chapter 8 - Some Things Never Left

Lia didn't know how long they had been walking

The air smelled like wet pavement and old pine

The rain had stopped

but the sky was still holding onto its grey

They didn't talk much

They didn't need to

Their steps fell into rhythm

like they used to

when they still belonged to each other

even if no one ever said it out loud

Arven's hands were in his pockets

but every now and then

he glanced at her

like making sure this wasn't just another memory trying to play tricks

She caught him once

eyes soft

and for the first time in forever

she didn't look away

They stopped by the bridge

the one near 5th Street

the one where they first kissed

and last argued

She leaned on the railing

looking at the water

but not really seeing it

"I used to come here," she said quietly

"Just to see if you still left initials carved on the wood like you used to"

Arven smiled

half real

half remembering

"I stopped carving when you left"

he said

"Didn't feel right marking anything permanent when you weren't around"

She ran her fingers across the old surface

there were still initials there

faded

some scratched over

but one was still clear

A + L

circled

like a secret no one ever erased

"I never stopped coming back," she whispered

"Even when I wasn't ready to be seen"

His voice dropped lower

like it hurt to speak

"Why did it take ten years?"

She didn't answer at first

because there were too many answers

and none of them were enough

So she just said

"Because I thought you'd moved on And I didn't want to know for sure"

He let out a breath

not angry

just tired

"I tried," he said

"But even when I held someone else's hand

I looked for yours"

Lia turned to face him

her hair slightly messy from the wind

eyes tired but clear

"Is that what we are?" she asked

"Just old feelings wrapped in new skin?"

"No," he said

"We're something that never got finished

and some part of us never wanted to"

She stepped closer

close enough to see the tiny scar above his brow

the one she gave him during a snowball fight when they were twenty

"You remember everything," she said

like it scared her

"I tried to forget," he replied

"But you only forget the things you never loved to begin with"

Silence again

but not empty

not cold

It felt like standing in the middle of a house with broken walls

but still somehow standing

"I don't know what this means," she admitted

her voice cracking just enough to show she meant it

"I don't know if we're trying to go back

or just afraid of going forward without each other"

He didn't reach for her

didn't press her

But his words came steady

the way truth usually does

when it's been waiting too long

"I'm not asking you to stay tonight"

he said

"I'm just asking you not to leave like you did last time

Without goodbye

Without giving us a chance to be honest"

Lia bit her lip

and looked away

because the weight of honesty is heavier than lies ever are

"I wrote you a second letter," she said

soft

almost inaudible

"When?"

"Two years ago"

She laughed once

dry

"Another one I didn't send"

"What did it say?"

She looked at him

really looked

"It said I still wore your sweater every winter

even when I was supposed to be loving someone else"

He blinked

like that confession landed somewhere deep

past the years

past the silence

"Lia…"

She stepped forward

just a little

and her voice broke again

but this time it didn't matter

"I didn't come back to say goodbye"

He stayed still

but his eyes

they reached for her

"Then why?"

She swallowed

her heart beating louder than the quiet around them

"I came back because no matter where I went

I was always walking in circles that led back to you"

The sky cracked open above them

not with rain

but with a hush that wrapped around everything they were too afraid to say

He didn't answer with words

Just closed the space between them

and rested his forehead against hers

And for the first time in a decade

neither of them ran

They didn't kiss

They didn't promise anything

But in the stillness

they let the moment hold them

because sometimes

healing doesn't look like fireworks

or grand gestures

Sometimes it's just two people

finally standing in the same place

at the same time

And meaning it

---

They stayed like that for a while

no words

no movement

just breath shared in silence

Lia could feel it again

the weight of what they never said

the gravity of what still existed

It wasn't a fairytale

Not anymore

But it was real

and real was enough

"Do you regret it?" she asked suddenly

not looking up

just letting the question slip into the cold air between them

He didn't answer right away

She could feel him thinking

deep and slow

like the truth was harder than it sounded

"No," he said finally

"I regret what we lost

but not what we were"

She nodded

quietly

the kind of nod people do when they want to cry

but choose not to

"I hated you for a long time," she admitted

"I hated how you made me feel seen

and then let me go like I never mattered"

Arven didn't flinch

didn't defend himself

He just listened

"You weren't easy to hate," she added

her voice softer

"You were still the only voice I heard when the world got too loud"

"I never let you go," he said

calm

clear

"I let myself believe I had to"

Lia's throat tightened

the way it always did when words carried too many memories

"I broke us," she whispered

"No," he said

"We both did

piece by piece

quietly

until there was nothing left but silence"

They stood side by side again

hands brushing

not quite holding

not quite apart

"You know what I hated more than missing you?" she asked

"The idea that you were out there

maybe with someone else

laughing

building something I should've fought for"

Arven turned

slow

gentle

"I was never whole after you, Lia

Not even close"

She laughed

once

but it sounded too much like crying

"I spent years pretending I didn't care

until the pretending hurt more than the missing"

He finally reached for her hand

slow

careful

like asking for permission without words

She didn't pull away

"When I heard you were back in town," he said

"I couldn't breathe for a moment

because I wasn't sure if it would destroy me or save me"

Lia looked up at him

eyes wet

but alive

"Maybe we don't need to know which one yet"

They walked again

slow steps

back toward the café

toward the street they used to call theirs

Everything had changed

but somehow

everything was exactly where they left it

"Do you still write?" he asked as they passed the old bookstore

"Not like I used to," she said

"Words don't come easy when the heart is tired"

"You used to say writing was how you stayed alive"

"I did," she nodded

"But then I stopped wanting to stay alive in the same way"

Arven looked at her with something softer than sympathy

something deeper than understanding

"Write about this," he said

"About us

Even if no one reads it"

She smiled

small

shy

"But you'll read it?"

"I already am," he said

"Every time you speak"

They reached the steps of her building

the one she'd just moved into again

and stood there

neither one reaching for the door

because some goodbyes are harder than others

even temporary ones

"I should go in," she said

"You should," he echoed

But neither moved

"Arven…"

"Yeah?"

"If I run again

will you chase me this time?"

He stepped closer

so close she could feel the warmth of his breath

"No," he whispered

"I won't chase you

I'll stand still

until you realize you were never meant to run alone"

She looked at him

really looked

and something inside her finally stopped trembling

"Goodnight," she said

"Not goodbye?"

She shook her head

"Never again"

And as she stepped inside

she didn't feel like she was closing a door

She felt like

for the first time

she was finally opening one

---

Lia stood by the window

lights off

only the glow from the street below dancing on her skin

and her heart

for once

wasn't racing to run away

it was learning how to stay

She could still feel the warmth of Arven's hand

as if her fingers remembered better than her mind ever could

She touched her lips

not because they had kissed

but because they almost did

and sometimes

the ache of almost

hurts more than goodbye

She didn't sleep that night

not really

She lay on the bed

fully dressed

eyes open

watching the ceiling as if it might answer everything

Because what do you do

when the person you tried to forget

reminds you who you are again

Morning came quiet

with a whisper of sunlight peeking through the curtain

She didn't need coffee

She needed clarity

But clarity never came in a cup

and it definitely didn't come with answers

Her phone buzzed

just once

a message from an unsaved number

but she knew exactly who it was

"Same café. Same table. No pressure."

She stared at the words

heart clenching

because no pressure felt like a thousand pounds

when the person waiting was the one you broke

She didn't reply

She just got up

pulled on the same coat she wore yesterday

and walked out the door

like she didn't need to think about it

but every step was loud

like footsteps in memory

Willow Brew looked exactly the same

but also

like it had been holding its breath for years

just waiting for this morning

He was already there

of course he was

back straight

hands wrapped around a cup that was probably already cold

She opened the door

and for the second time

in what felt like the same lifetime

he looked up and saw her

This time

he smiled first

"You came"

She nodded

barely

but it was enough

"I thought about not coming," she said honestly

"I thought about not texting," he replied

"But you did"

"But you did"

They sat

again

no one took the first sip

because coffee wasn't the reason they were there

"I couldn't sleep," she whispered

"Me neither," he said

"I kept replaying everything you said last night

every word

every silence between your words"

She stared down at the table

"I don't know how to do this, Arven"

"Do what?"

"Be around you

and not fall in again"

He was quiet

not because he didn't know what to say

but because he wanted to say it right

"Then don't fight it," he finally said

"Maybe falling is what we were always meant to do"

She shook her head

tears pressing

"I'm scared I'll break you again"

"You won't"

"You don't know that"

"I don't care," he said

soft

but certain

"Even if I get hurt again

I'd rather feel everything with you

than nothing without you"

She blinked fast

trying to breathe past the lump in her throat

"People change, Arven"

"I know"

"I'm not the same girl who left"

He reached across the table

gently

his fingers brushing hers

not grabbing

not forcing

just being there

"Good

Because the girl who left was scared

And the woman in front of me

is brave enough to come back"

She looked at him

really looked

and something inside her shifted

"I'm not promising anything," she said

"You don't have to"

"I still don't know if this will work"

"Neither do I"

"But I want to try," she whispered

Arven smiled

not wide

not dramatic

just real

"That's all I've ever wanted"

And right then

the world outside kept spinning

cars moved

people walked

the sky changed colors

but inside that tiny café

two people who thought they lost everything

realized

some things

never really left

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