The intensity of heavy drops of rain started to fade as the storm outside died down but rain still continued to fall lightly on the Tower. Cyborg and Robin still continued to focus on Terra. She was dealing with something serious and they wanted to help the one who saved their lives and the city they protected.
"Terra?" Robin began starting to connect the dots, "are you getting your memories back?"
Cyborg looked at Robin eyes wide. He knew that amnesia is a very difficult condition to recover from. The chances for getting your memories back are slim to none but there could be only one explanation for why Terra was at the Tower with them. He felt dumbfounded that he didn't realize it sooner.
"Well..." Terra started, "I-"
Terra was cut off as the the door to the hallway opened wide and Raven came charging into the room. All three of their heads snapped towards the door to see a very serious look on her face like she had unfinished business to take care of. Starfire followed in behind her quietly.
"What is she doing here?" Raven asked with a serious tone. Raven was acting as if she couldn't even see Terra. She was only addressing Robin and Cyborg.
"We're trying to figure that out," Cyborg shot back feeling the tension in her voice.
Raven levitated off the floor and flew over to the front of the couch landing in front of Terra. She stood directly over Terra less that two feet away standing like she towered above Terra and the others.
Starfire followed in quietly and hovered over to her friends and stood behind the couch where Terra sat. She looked like she was seeing ghost. Her eyes wide with no idea how to feel. This was the first time she saw Terra since Terra sacrificed herself to save everyone. She was told by the others that she was alive again but she hadn't seen it with her own eyes yet. Seeing her under these circumstances was not ideal and she didn't know what to do.
The room went silent and the tension grew. All eyes were on Raven seeing what she'd do next. After the silence grew stronger, Raven finally spoke up.
"Well?" She said firmly crossing her arms in front of her chest, "what are you doing here?" Raven spoke slowly as if speaking to a toddler.
"Raven," Robin said sternly trying to calm her down, "that's enough."
"Yeah," Cyborg said trying to help, "the girl has been through a lot lately. We don't need to make it worse for her."
Raven clenched her teeth as if angry with her teammates. She felt like they cared more about Terra than they did about their closest friend Beastboy.
Terra could see the anger on Raven's face. She felt small and very intimidated. She gripped the cup in her hand a little tighter as fear wrapped around her like the blanket she wore.
"I..." Terra was tongue tied. She had no idea why this girl was so hostile towards her. She couldn't remember anything about her past. The only thing she did "remember" was this dream. The dream where she did something that forced her to give up "the best friend she ever had." Beastboy.
Terra lowered her head with a heavy heart thinking about her dreams. It was the only thing she had remotely close to a memory and she was beginning to understand that this memory was not a good one.
"Answer me!" Raven said raising her voice through her clenched teeth.
"Raven!" Robin said starting to get angry at his friend.
"It's ok," Terra said from her lowered head. She looked up at Robin thankful that he was defending her but a look of dread appeared on her face for reasons she still didn't know why. She turned her to gaze to Raven and looked her in the eyes, "look... Terra said calmly, "I have no idea why your angry with me. I have no idea what happened between us. I can't remember anything... But I do know that I did... something. Something bad," her voice left her as she couldn't imagine what she could have done that might have caused this person to resent her so much. She started to tear up understanding that whatever she did it was worse than bad. It was terrible. Unforgivable, "But I am so... so sorry," her voice trembled as she apologized for what she didn't understand, "whatever I did I'm so sorry!" She leaned towards raven in her seat trying to emphasize how truly sorry she was.
"Sorry? Sorry for what?" Raven respond quickly, "the time you tried to kill us? The time you almost destroyed the city and everyone in it? Or how about for breaking the heart of someone who loved you more than life?!" Raven's voice grew louder with each sentence as she leaned towards Terra to emphasize how serious she as well.
The whole room went silent again and everyone's eyes went wide. Terra's most of all. She sat back into the couch. Starfire put a hand over her mouth to cover her gasp as Robin and Cyborg stared at Raven in awe. It was as if Raven had forgotten everyone else was in the room with her. Almost like Terra was the only one in front of her.
"I... Tried to kill you?" Terra said terrified. She just realized she had walked into a building where five people lived, all of which she had once tried to wipe of the face of the earth. She was starting to worry this really was a huge mistake.
"Raven," Robin said calmly trying to de-escalate the situation, "she also saved us. She saved the city. At the cost of her own life. She made more than enough amends for her mistakes."
Raven looked at Robin. His face was kind and sincere. Like he knew what she was feeling. Her face relaxed and she regained her composure standing up straight. She could see her secret really was not a secret anymore. She looked over to Cyborg as well. He had the same look. Cyborg had figured out what Robin was saying when they spoke in his room. Raven's current change really has been due to Beastboy and now he knew why. Raven's last sentence to Terra spoke volumes.
Raven sighed and hung her head low as she closed her eyes. She felt awful for her outburst on this poor girl who couldn't remember anything. It was like she dropped a nuclear bomb on her with all this "new" information.
"I'm sorry," Raven said unconvincingly, "I know you can't remember any of it. But I can. I remember everything as if it happened yesterday. I guess I still haven't gotten over it," she looked at Terra with a painful stare, "I still don't trust you," she said softly, "but you deserve answers," with that Raven flew over the couch once more back to the the hallway door. She didn't want to be in the same room as Terra either.
Everyone in the room watched her exit the room without another word. Robin turned back to Terra after the hallway door slid shut and picked up where Raven left off.
"And we will give you those answers. Anything you want to know, all you have to do is ask," Robin said kindly.
Terra was staring at the door where two people have now stormed out due to her presence. She felt uneasy but felt better that those who were uncomfortable around her were now out of the room. She couldn't help but think about the time Beastboy had tried to help her recover her memories. He was trying so hard to help her and she blew him off like he didn't matter. But now she could see it was obvious that was not the case. What Raven said terrified her. She tried to kill all of them. She thought that was the worst of it... but Raven made it seem like she did something worse.
Breaking someone's heart... was worse? Terra thought to herself. Beastboy's heart? Terra's dread grew as everything started to make sense. Why Beastboy was so sincere and kind with her. Why he was so desperate to get her to remember. And why he was so relentless in chasing her down to help her. He loved her.
"Beastboy," Terra finally said looking away from the door and back down at her now cold drink, "did I... did I hurt him?"
Robin and Cyborg didn't know how to answer that. They looked at each other with no idea how to answer.
"He was very damaged when you decided to be the apprentice of Slade," Starfire decided to answer for them.
"Who's Slade?" Terra asked.
"An evil mad man who will stop at nothing to find an apprentice to help him take over the city," Robin answered from experience, "he forced me to be his apprentice once," Robin looked away remembering the pain of fighting his friends in order to save them, "he used my friends as a way to get to me. I had no choice but to do what he wanted. If I hadn't he would have killed all of them."
Cyborg and Starfire looked at Robin remembering the past. They both thought about how he sacrificed himself to save them just like Terra did. That kind of friendship is hard to find. They were proud and grateful to call him their leader.
Terra's mind flashed back to her dream. The face of the shadow who she started attacking after she regained control of herself in front of Beastboy.
"Did he do the same thing to me?" Terra asked.
The Titans went silent. They knew it wasn't because Slade threatened anyone she cared about. She was just manipulated by someone who promised her control. Control over her powers that caused problems for her everywhere she went. Someone who could save her from herself. But in the end it wasn't her control he offered. It was his control over her entirely.
"You kinda... chose... to be his apprentice," Cyborg said a little tense. He was unsure how she was gonna take that.
Terra looked up at Cyborg a little scared but was happy they were telling her the full truth without holding back.
"And Beastboy?" Terra said once more, "how bad was it when I..." Her voice trailed off trying to figure out what she was trying to say, "how bad did I hurt him?" She felt she already knew the answer from what she said to him last.
Raven was headed down the hallway, speed walking. She wanted to check on Beasboy to make sure he was ok. When she finally got to his room she was about to knock but stopped short. She was still not the best at talking to people. So needless to say, she couldn't figure what she was gonna say. After a moment of her fist hovering over the door she took a deep breath and knocked softly.
"Beatboy," Raven said with sympathy, "are you ok?"
She didn't get a response. She figured Beastboy was in pain and didn't want to talk.
"Beastboy," she said again louder than the first time, "I know you probably don't wanna talk but I'm willing to help however I can," she sounded sincere and caring like she really wanted to help him.
Nothing but silence returned to her again. Raven began to worry.
"Beastboy?" She asked hoping he wouldn't mind that she was about to intrude into his space.
She opened the door to find an empty room. The window was wide open as bright flashes of lighting danced in the distance as the storm drifted further and further away. Beastboy couldn't just be in the same room as Terra. He couldn't be in the same building either.