It is indeed as they say issues of the heart can't be understood by anyone but yourself.
I let out a pathetic laughter filled with years of craving and longing for something that can never be mine as my life gradually slip away,
sometimes I wonder why can't he put me in his eyes, to think he can't even be bothered to hate me. Pure indifference that's the way he looks at me.
where did it all go wrong? How did we get to this point? He's supposed to be my childhood lover and fiancee yet he only looks at me when it concerns her.
Still I can feel he doesn't have me in his eyes. I hate her I hate so much more than anyone I've ever known she took away everything from me yet acts so pitiful and innocent.
My family, fiancee and friends everything, even my life. Yes I found out I've been poisoned by that bitch ciara but what is the point of struggling isn't death the closure I've been searching for maybe I'll finally be free of this overwhelming pain in my heart.
I'm tired, just so tired." I sigh as I feel myself get closer to death. "Please God, in my next life, I don't want to see him again. Let our path never cross .I don't want to fall in love with him anymore. If he can't be mine, then let's never meet .
Funny how I feel more peace being closer to death than I've ever felt in the last seven years to think I'll ever be at a point in life so low and seeking peace in death , how did I become so weak ? I scoffed darkly as I slowly let go.
"If there's a next life, I'll play them all to death," I promise myself and accepted the darkness that comes with the peace.
"Fuck my head hurts " I muttered as I opened my dark heavy eyelids. Hold on, this doesn't feel right ,where the fuck am I and how did I survive.
surely she wouldn't have happened to grow a conscience and let me off right?? and yeah classic summer I let my thought wander again instead of focusing on where I am,
you know I'm beginning to think this why I was killed. Haha, just kidding. Some people wickedness has absolutely nothing to do with this sweet baby's personality, and I can't possibly understand how these jealous creatures reason now can I??.
" knock knock....young miss"
Fuck now I'm sure I'm not hallucinating . ill recognize that voice anywhere I rushed up to open the door,
imagine my surprise as I stumbled my way to the floor and my eyes immediately turns red that hurts like a bitch yeah someone better explains what's going on here cause I'm about to lose it fortunately my sweet little maid comes rushing in .never one to disappoint,
Rosa is more than a maid to me she has been with me since I learned to walk she's older than me by 5 years . unfortunately she ended up being beaten to death after taking the blame for me when my step sister framed me .
now this rebirth thing seems real to me and I sure as hell will keep her safe in the game this time .
"young miss.... are you alright you seem bothered surely u didn't hit ur head from the fall right ??
" ugh not like I can tell her I'm having the craziest day of my life ." I'm fine what do you need me for rosa" I ask while searching for my phone I need to know today's date.
" just wanted to inform you that Master is downstairs he brought a young lady the old master is in a heated argument with him and I was sent to bring you" and ...
"crash"
I hit the table while jerking up ooo there's absolutely no way I forgot today now it's time to turn things against that fake white lotus downstairs.
first thing first this little princess has to dress to strike properly although to dress can be a hassle sometimes, to see the look of hate and jealousy on dat bitch face will be worth it right?? .