The next day I can only think of Rose. I mean what else is new, but today was much more naughty than in the past. Imagining her undressing and doing very sexy things. During my lunch break, I go to see Nurse Joy so she can take a look at my wound progression. I have my lunch in my left hand and am munching as she does some gross cleanup on my wound. She giggles, "With your stomach, you might have a future in health care." I laugh, "This is different. Treat my skin like fabric with the needle and thread, I will get weak in the knees almost immediately. It doesn't hurt but it makes me feel very uncomfortable. I have to look away when you fix my stitches." Saying that makes me shiver. Nurse Joy says, "There are many people who are the same way. It is an actual medical condition that causes people to faint, you know? So there is nothing to be ashamed of." I say while still eating my food, "Oh, I am not ashamed of it. It isn't like that condition makes me weak by any standards." Nurse Joy says, "Good. I get many men who feel emasculated and weak after finding out they have a condition."
I responded, "Well, I am not a man. Though, I would totally be better at it." After saying that I want to start singing 'If I were a boy' by Beyonce. Resisting all urges to break out in song. I just play the song in my mind on low volume like my own personal soundtrack. Nurse Joy says with a short laugh, "You actually would. You would have been a handsome man, too. Sorry, if that came off as weird. I only meant it as a general compliment. I only like men that are around my age. For clarification purposes." I laugh, "I only took it as such." Nurse Joy laughs, "Haha. That is good. Aaaand that should do it." She says as she finishes rebandaging my hand. She continues, "Your hand is healing pretty nicely, though this is not a 'go ahead'. More like 'keep doing what you are doing'." I responded, "I understand." She probably would not like that I have been actively playing knocker with this hand. Though I am a good girl and not hitting anyone with it. Just blocking responsibly with my forearm. I choose the 'omitting the whole truth' option. I am not lying if I don't say it right? Plus, she said keep doing what I am doing. So she technically just gave me the go-ahead to keep playing knocker.
I smile and Nurse Joy smiles in response looking absolutely stunningly beautiful. Though she does not know why I am smiling and says, "Don't forget to come see me if you need to. Or even if you don't need to. Since you have an old soul, you can help me with courting advice." I laugh, "I am not sure how much help I will be. I don't know if you noticed but I am really autistic and struggle in social situations." Nurse Joy says, "Just because you might struggle does not mean your input is invalid. Didn't you say you were happily married in your last life." I responded, "Well, yes I was very happily married. Though I don't think that gives validity to any advice I may have." Nurse Joy responds, "You were able to find someone who you enjoyed being married to. Do you realize how difficult that is? At least in this world we live in." I responded smiling a soft smile thinking thoughts of Liz, "I can't imagine the circumstances in this world. I was really lucky in my last life. My wife was so amazing and she was hilarious. She was always doing something to make me laugh."
Nurse Joy asks, "Was it difficult marrying a woman? Let me rephrase that, did you have any hurdles that stood in your way?" I responded, "We were pretty lucky to be born in a time where we could just decide we wanted to get married. In past years in that world that wasn't always the case. The gay/lesbian community had to fight for every right we had. The same is probably needed here." Nurse Joy then says, "Well, you are young, you have your whole life ahead of you to fight for those rights." I shake my head and say dejectedly, "I won't be alive that long. I won't even graduate from this institution. It was written that way in the prophecy. I die on my 19th birthday, but since I am fighting this prophecy they will probably try to kill me sooner." Nurse Joy makes a weird face, "Is there nothing we can do to fight this prophecy?"
I shrug, "To be honest, I have no idea. Rose is actually going to write her own story to see if she can fight it that way." Nurse Joy responds, "You must trust her a lot to put your life in her hands." I nod, "Of course I do. I love her so much that she could even kill me herself as a way of fighting this curse and I would be ok with that. I know she loves me with all of her heart and has the best intentions." Nurse Joy makes a weird face, "You are just a kid yet you found someone like that? I am so jealous." I ask her, "Do you have any guy you like?" She blushes, "Well, I do think Doctor Grant is quite handsome." I squeal in excitement, "SHUT UP! Ok, I have no idea if he is even interested in things like that or even what his sexual orientation is. It is now my mission in life to find out for you and let you know." I do a little happy wiggle after saying that smiling ear to ear.
I am not a ninja that can just find out in a nonchalant way like some protagonist in a movie so I will just ask him point blank so there is little chance for misunderstandings. We don't want this to turn into a bad romcom with the stupid misunderstandings that would have not happened if there was a proper conversation. You know the ones. The super painful, 'I love you, you love me but you think I don't because you saw/heard something out of context'. I would yell to my TV or book, "JUST TALK TO HER/HIM!" Nurse Joy says while still blushing, "I can't believe I am eliciting a child's help with something like this, but I guess you aren't quite a child are you? You are also with Doctor Grant like everyday right? You have a lot more opportunities to talk with him than I do, so it only makes sense that you do." She says talking herself into it and I shrug, "I am both a child and an adult. My memory is that of an adult but my body is still that of a teenager. These hormones of mine are most definitely a teenager's." Nurse Joy giggles while glancing at the clock, "That is too funny. Here let me let you go otherwise you will be late to your afternoon sessions." I wave to her, "Take care, Nurse Joy." I say with a smile.
After school today, I went straight to my dorm. Blushing thinking about Rose. I dropped a bag that had pajamas I got my scent in for Rose and dropped it out of the window. I feel the tug and Rose says, "Last night was incredible. The 'you' in my imagination did some very naughty things. What is in the bag?" I tug on the line blushing, "The bag has a pair of pajamas that has my scent on it for you." Rose tugs on the line while taking out my pajamas and sniffing, "I love this so much. Thank you, Violet." She buries her face in my pajamas for another brief moment then continues, "So tell me all the naughty things 'I did to you'." I cover my red face with my free bandaged hand.
Rose continues talking, "Let me see that cute face of yours while you say it, please." I reluctantly drop my hand and my face is even redder than before. I tug on the line, "You gently touched me all over teasing me with your touch. Feeling goosebumps at your soft touch. I was so wet with anticipation, then you started touching me. Slipping your fingers in between the lips of my sex, getting them nice and lubed from my juices to swirl your fingers around my clit while teasing my nipples. Your touch was so amazing that I orgasmed pretty quickly. Almost embarrassing quickly if I am being honest." Rose tugs on the line and moans into the phone, "My turn. I imagined you kissing me all over like you said. Imagining you doing anything I would say. I giggled to myself when in my fantasy I made you reow like a cat."
I tug on the line, "I would do anything you desired." Rose tugs on the line and moans, "Ooooo. That is exactly the response I was hoping for. Well, you reowed for me very adorably and nibbled on my nipples. I then begged you to touch me and you started licking me between my legs. When I started quivering with pleasure, you inserted two fingers and started to slowly pump then gradually get faster and more passionate. I yelled for you to go deeper and you opened your hand a bit more so you could get just a bit further inside me and you kept licking me around my clit the whole time. Like you I orgasmed pretty quickly. I really wish I could touch you for real." I tug on the line, "I mean, we could tie me down so even if the creator takes control they can't hurt you."
Rose tugs on the line, "No. I refuse to have you feel any molesting feelings while you are lying with me. I don't care if it isn't me causing it. I just want you to have a good time." I tug on the line, "I would still consent. I can still see you and feel you even if I am not in control." Rose shakes her head, "I don't think you understand. I wouldn't be comfortable and consent to you being actively raped in your soul while I was trying to have sex with you. We will find another way. There has to be. I don't ever want you to feel that feeling ever again." I start sweating and feel sick just thinking about it. My head starts hurting as if on cue and Rose tugs on the cup, "Are you feeling ok, Violet?" I tugged on the line staggering a bit since the headache was pretty sudden, "I just got a sharp headache."
Rose tugs on the line, "Do you need me to go so you can lie down?" I tug on the line while going to sit down by the window, "I will be fine if I sit down a bit. I would feel better talking to you. Your voice soothes my soul like honey." Rose tugs the line, "You say my voice is like honey. When you say things like that, I just want to take my clothes off right here." I tug on the line with a little urgency, "Please don't. I would prefer I was the only one able to see your naked body. I don't want to share. I don't want everyone to get a free show." Rose tugs on the line, "You don't like sharing huh?" I tug on the line, "I don't hate against those that do share lovers, but for me I would rather keep them all to myself. I am yours and you are mine. Though, I feel selfish asking you to not lie with another man or woman when I cannot touch you myself." Rose tugs on the line, "I don't want you to lie with another man or woman either. I love being able to talk to you like this hearing your innermost desires really does things for me. Everything you say makes me hot and bothered." I tug on the line feeling a little Deja Vu and confused, "What about it bothers you?" She tugs on the line, "Not that kind of bothered, silly. You have a way of getting me so horny." I tug on the line, "Ohhh. I am a dumb ass, sorry." Rose tugs on the line, "Hey, stop talking about yourself like that. You are not a dumb ass. Don't talk about my lover like that." I giggle thinking she sounds a lot like Liz right now and sigh while I tug on the line, "Ok, fine. Only because you said so."
After our talk, I get my journal out and go over my thoughts over everything that has happened. The girls' relationships with me have improved which was completely different from the novel and I became friends with Lily which I don't remember happening to Violet in the novel either or they didn't put it on paper that it occurred. Who knows? Maybe things happened in that universe that weren't notated in the book. It was through Rose's perspective, so I am sure that she missed a lot of things in the background behind the scenes. I think I am on the right track in fighting the bad ending. Especially after my recent development with Rose. I feel on cloud nine right now because she feels the same as I do. Wait, does that mean that I am both the villainess and the love interest? Is that ok? Is me falling in love with her going to bring her harm? As happy as I am about this recent development in our relationship, I am probably equally anxious.
It is now the weekend and I am really excited to have Rose try the cart. Rose got me a pair of her pajamas as well so I could smell her as well. Though I only had them last night I feel I will never be able to fall asleep again without clutching them and sniffing them before bed. I hugged them like I normally would a blanket at night.
I brought my helmet just for Rose and went to Doc's laboratory. She isn't here yet and it is just Doc messing around with a few different types of plastic materials. I ask him while we are alone, "Do you have any interest in dating, Doc? Before you ask, this is not for me obviously." Doc sighs, "Men and women don't usually like men like me as a romantic option. I am just a poor researcher that makes very little money at the academy." I shake my head, "I know of one very beautiful woman who thinks you are very handsome." He perks up, "Well don't leave me hanging all day. Who is it?" I giggle, "It is Nurse Joy." His face looks shocked, "I had no idea she felt that way. I will have a proper talk with her. Thank you for telling me. I would have never known how she felt otherwise." I do a little happy dance and squeal, "I am so happy! Two of my favorite people like each other!" I squeal again doing another happy dance. Rose comes in and giggles after seeing me, "Why are we so happy?" I start to get grossed out, "Doc will tell you, can you leave briefly so I can go to the testing site and wait for you?" Rose is understanding and leaves immediately. When I don't feel gross anymore I place the helmet in the cart for her then head to the testing site.
At the hill I get a good way away, but I still want to be close enough to see Rose's excitement. I see them at the top of the hill and Rose sees me off to the side where I am spectating and she waves with a gorgeous smile stretching ear to ear wearing my helmet. Doc also put goggles on her for extra safety. She gets in the cart and it appears Doc is showing her how it works. Before she is pushed off, Doc ties her hair in a low ponytail (because of the helmet) and I assume is telling her of the time he once had long hair. It almost cost him his life in an experiment getting caught in a geared contraption and he had to cut it off in a panic for his life. She nods and he pushes the cart. Her eyes instantly get big and bright with excitement and she starts screaming immediately. Even though she has a helmet on, her brilliant red hair is waving like a horse's tail at a full gallop. Her excited expression and that open face smile/happy scream she is doing is healing my soul. My heart skips a beat seeing her like this and I can't help but clutch my chest.