I still can't bring myself to forget all that happened that night,the memories are still very fresh in my mind,just like yesterday only that it is 4 years now .
Those soft caress are still very fresh in my mind and some times I still feel your presence with me.oh! Mark why did u leave me in this horrible world filled with so much sadness and hate.
How I wish u were here to console me in this sadness that has now became my companion..every now I then I feel you..I lust after that night,that night u made me feel like a woman.
The night that brought me happiness and then afterwards left me void, unreplaceable void that only your presence can fill
And just like yesterday I will still keep on regretting why you left my place that night APRIL 12TH,the day that welcomed me into womanhood and widowhood, happiness and sorrow, in a blinking of an eye.
It was a Wednesday, the cool afternoon breeze made our time together more pleasurable, u came to my place with a bunch of rose flowers,I remember u were putting on the best of ur suit, a black properly ironed suit that accentuated your good looks, I remember u proposed that evening, and whispered to me that we will have 4 kids,3 boys and a girl her name would be Dianna, we would treat her like a princess, I remember u took of my dress and made love to me,all the while whispering your promises into my ears, I was in heaven,you told me how I will be your one and only your heart,till death do us part .when we were done we watched a movie until it was past midnight I begged you to stay but you insisted on leaving,you said you had things to do,and you will come the next day .
How I wish I knew that would be our last time together, I would have held you more closer when you where inside of me, I would have kissed you more, and hugged you tightly when you stood to leave.
How do I explain that immediately you left something inside of me felt empty, felt loose,I had the urge to throw up.
How do I explain that I watched you go into the cold hands of death .
I would have stopped you, I would have done more.
How do I explain that when I received a call by 2am I knew you where dead, something in me was saying it until I believed.
How do I explain that you drew your last breath on phone with me,u called his name John wilcox he stabbed you to death
He said you took me away ...of course I know him John wilcox, son of Adam Wilcox, he wanted me, I hated him, he killed you
And I killed him, now am in jail because I killed him ..
Dear Mark I will soon join you, in less than a month..