KELVIN
The knowledge of the pile of work waiting for me in my office has my steps quickening as I get out of the elevator.
My stride is halted by a young man standing before me and smiling at me like we're friends.
"Hello, I'm David", his hand is stretched out for a handshake. Not wanting to seem rude I clasp his hand quickly, "I'm Kelvin".
I move to leave but I'm halted by David, he is looking at me with a friendly smile and probably trying to make conversation.
My workload is too heavy for this. "You're new here right".
I nod, "I spoke to you yesterday but you didn't seem okay, hope the big boss is not working you hard".
I obviously wasn't okay yesterday, " I'm fine, the job is taking some getting use to".
" it's like that for all of us when we start working but eventually you fall into the routine" "thanks".
It comes out much more clipped than I intended it to be, but he doesn't seem to notice as he crowds my personal space and launches into more talk "I have worked under Kylian and that's the bosses right hand man, if you ever need any help, I don't mind helping out."
A throat is cleared quite loudly behind us, David's eye widen and he seems scared.
"Kelvin", no, Mr Evans is behind me and I become acutely aware of the hand on my shoulder, and I shrug David of real quick.
"Sir?", "aren't you supposed to be getting the documents for the Marly meeting ready".
"I'm sorry sir", not even twenty four hours and I'm already breaking his rules.
As soon as he faces David, the coward spins and speeds off almost falling in the process.
His attention is now fully focused on me. I gulp and lead the way to the office his shoes clacking steadily behind me.
My heart is trying to jump out of my chest, and his presence right behind me is not helping at all.
As soon as we get to my office I am shoved against my desk.
His arms around me caging me, his muscles bulge in his suit obviously tensed.
"You don't have an obedient bone in your body, do you?"" "I'm sorry sir I didn't me to…" "shhhhhh".
His voice is literally so close to me,his breath caresses my ear.
Thank goodness I am not facing him because I don't even know if I could take it.
His one hand goes on my lower back pushing my front flat on the desk.
"You go around flirting with my employees, showing yourself off for every one out there".
I groan and shut my eyes."I'm sorry, I don't mean to" I will probably exhaust the whole bank of the word sorry, apologizing to him.
"You don't mean to what hmm mouse?, flirt with my employees or show yourself off?", he breathes the question in my ear his nose skimming the shell.
My blood rate spike, my head is so light I can barely think around what is happening, this is definitely not appropriate and the fire in my blood is definitely not appropriate.
I let out a quiet moan, "You tease, so you like men? What will I do with you now?".
The question comes as a shock I've never questioned my sexuality before, never had the time nor opportunity to do so.
"Mr Evans!", my tone seems to wake him up and he pushes away from me.
"What the hell!, get the reports ready, you're following me to meetings, you should start earning your salary."
He goes into his office and shuts his door and I'm finally able to breathe.
What the hell was that?
My work alarm goes off notifying me on the preliminary meeting the company is to have to discuss themes before meeting with the clients.
I knock on his door, and slightly pass my head in the embrasure.
"Mr Evans it's time for the meeting" ".".
He doesn't bother giving me a solid answer and when our eyes meet his are acier blue, the coldness in them rivaling with ice atop of a mountain.
I stand in front of the office waiting for him, after a couple of minutes he comes out and starts marching towards the conference room without acknowledging me, I hurry up to keep up with him.
Everyone is already sitted when we arrive, Kylian and Mrs Cadwell are sitted closer up.
They are the only people I recognize at the table, I quickly sit down next to the evil boss, placing the documents before him, he still doesn't acknowledge me.
Mrs Cadwell clears her throat and stands up, " now that Mr Evans is here we can start the session".
The IT personnel, projects the power points for the merger, all of them very similar to what I had glimpsed in the documents.
With some clarity, I realize that I'm not ready for this meeting, I wasn't even supposed to attend it.
Hopefully I don't get asked any questions.
It seems like the wrong kind of angels heard my prayer.
"Kelvin, what do you think of Marly's partnering with us and gaining access to thirty percent of the proceeds from our diamond mines with a ten percent return".
My brain seems to short circuit, of all the time he could remember me.
"I ummm" , I can't help but stutter, on a normal day, this would be a piece of cake but the pressure of all the attention faced on me has me unable to speak.
"You are here to assist me, what do you think?" "Sir..", "yes?", his demeanor could freeze the Mediterranean Sea.
"I think it's a good deal". He bursts into terse laughter " a good deal huh?, that's all you have to say?".
"I wasn't aware I would be taking part in the meeting".
"Excuses and bullshit that's all you have to offer, all of your education yet here you are incompetent and useless".
"Micheal!" Mrs Cadwell exclaims outraged, " with all due respect madame but your secretary doesn't even have a basic idea on what might be one of the biggest deals for this company if that is not incompetence personified".
I try my best to blink away the tears clouding my eyes but know I am not really successful at that either.
Whatever notion that something went on between us has obviously been shattered, that was probably an imagination of my affection starved brain. "I am so sorry, I promise to do better" " more bullshit, please someone knowledgeable should continue".
The room is silent as two drop of tears silently trickle down my face.
"Cut the boy some slack", Mrs Cadwell says to Micheal, she clears her throat and face the rest, "please continue".
The meeting goes on and is quite enlightening, something I would probably have enjoyed if only I was not fighting back tears.
Once the meeting is done everyone rushes out of the office, Micheal and Kylian leave through a different door and it's just me and Mrs Cadwell in the office.
"Boy, how are you", I try to speak but she cuts me off, "don't lie to me that, how do you really feel inside".
"Not good, it's really hard, I don't know, I don't know if I will ever be able to meet up" "good, do you want this job?, are you really willing to do better?"
"Yes I really need it, I will work hard."
She shakes her head and clears her throat once more "you're a strong boy, and at least you're willing to try your best, I trust you to do better next time because today was a disaster".
I nod stiffly, "but even you don't deserve that, Micheal will be hearing from me, go home you've had enough for today".
She leaves the office but I am reluctant to go home scared of the scene I will meet there.