He could feel the subtle desire through Shiao Yi's tight underwear, and that filled him with a quiet sense of joy.
Even though Shiao Yi was a man, that didn't matter to him at all. In this country, relationships between men weren't uncommon—especially in the military, where men lived and worked together constantly. It wasn't something strange. More than anything, Shiao Yi was his one and only, his irreplaceable person. So why should he feel hesitation?
"…Dominic…" Shiao Yi's voice was hoarse, almost a whisper.
Dominic lifted his head and looked into Shiao Yi's eyes.
Shiao Yi's eyes were shining, his cheeks slightly flushed—but his expression was strangely calm. That sudden contrast sent a chill through Dominic's chest.
"Dominic, do you want my body?" Shiao Yi asked, his voice steady despite everything. "You saved my life. If that's what you want, I'll give it to you. As a thank-you for saving me. My life for yours."
"Shiao…?"
"I'm not good at this kind of thing," Shiao Yi continued quietly. "Back in my old world, I was ordered to do it before—by someone higher up. I didn't want to, but I couldn't say no. They always yelled at me afterward, said I was no fun. It never felt good. I don't think I can do it properly. But if you still want me, go ahead."
Dominic felt something cold spread through his chest, like ice creeping into his heart.
What… was Shiao Yi saying?
Was he really offering his body in return for being saved? Had someone already forced themselves on him before?
What about his feelings?
Dominic suddenly realized he had never once asked about Shiao Yi's feelings. He had been so overwhelmed by the joy of finding someone he believed was his one and only, that he never stopped to ask what Shiao Yi actually wanted. He didn't know anything about Shiao Yi's past. Not his pain, not his sadness, not even the emotions he carried.
"Dominic… for some reason, I think I'd hate it if you were disappointed in me," Shiao Yi said quietly. "That kind of damage… it feels like it would hurt a lot."
He reached up and placed a hand gently on Dominic's back, then buried his face into his chest as if seeking comfort, his voice quiet and uncertain.
...
Dominic kissed Shiao Yi and pushed him down onto the sofa. He began to touch and kiss Shiao Yi's neck and chest.
The sudden action surprised Shiao Yi, but the pleasure slowly started to make him lose control.
The touches were gentle. It was the first time anyone had ever touched him like this.
A heat started to rise inside him. He never knew that this kind of act could bring pleasure.
Though it wasn't forced, Shiao Yi thought it was okay to accept.
That's why he spoke, giving a small warning without expecting much.
"This is my thanks for saving my life. But... I don't know how to do this well. If you're still okay with it, then take me."