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Chapter 46 - What We Remember

Dawn crept over Oakhaven like a reluctant mourner, pale light filtering through the frost-covered pines with none of its usual promise. The village stirred slowly, families emerging from the meeting hall where they'd spent the night huddled together, afraid to return to homes that had felt safe just hours before.

The mundane rhythms of morning began despite everything. Smoke rose from chimneys as fires were rekindled. At the woodchopper's cottage, the old man emerged alone, his weathered hands gripping an axe that suddenly seemed too heavy. He stood before the pile of logs that needed splitting, staring at work that had always been shared. The solitary thunk of steel meeting wood carried across the village like a funeral bell—a rhythm that had once meant Kael's laughter and heated debates about family tradition.

But the absence was everywhere. In the way conversations stopped mid-sentence when someone almost mentioned his name. In the empty space at the communal well where he used to perch with his stories. In the silence that fell over places where his laughter had echoed just days before.

Emil sat on the steps of his grandfather's dwelling, staring at his hands. Finn limped over on his still-tender ankle, settling beside him without a word. Astrid joined them a few minutes later, her mother having finally released her from the protective embrace that had lasted through the night. They formed a small, incomplete circle, each acutely aware of the fourth space that would never be filled again.

"He was supposed to be at the Awakening ceremony," Emil said finally, his voice barely above a whisper.

Astrid wiped at her eyes with the back of her sleeve. "He was so sure he'd be a Fighter. Said he was going to be the strongest one in the mountains."

"He was brave enough," Finn added, his voice thick. "Saved me without even thinking about it."

The three friends sat in the growing daylight, surrounded by a village learning to breathe around a wound that would never fully heal. Somewhere in the meeting hall, Alph was waking to the same terrible knowledge they carried.

The quiet after was perhaps the cruelest part of all.

"Remember when he convinced us that moss spirits lived in Grandpa's garden?" Emil's voice carried the first hint of warmth it had held all morning. "Said if we didn't talk to them properly, they'd make all our vegetables taste like dirt."

Astrid managed a watery smile. "And you believed him for three whole months. I watched you apologizing to every patch of moss you stepped on."

"It worked, didn't it?" Emil protested weakly. "The turnips that year were the best we'd ever grown."

Finn shifted his weight, favoring his injured ankle. "What about the time he 'borrowed' Uncle Borin's practice arrows? Spent the whole day trying to teach Iska how to fetch them, convinced he could train her like a hunting dog."

The stories came easier after that. Small moments that had seemed ordinary when they lived them but now carried the weight of something precious and irreplaceable. Kael's uncanny ability to find the one loose board in any fence, his insistence that he could catch fish with his bare hands if he was just fast enough, the way he'd never let anyone eat alone during village gatherings.

Around them, Oakhaven was quietly preparing for something it had never had to do before—bury one of its children. Families moved with solemn purpose, each household offering what they could for the rites.

At Hemlock's dwelling, Emil's little sister picked wildflowers from the medicinal garden, her small fingers careful not to disturb the plants they'd need for healing. Even Borin, despite his own injuries, worked quietly in his shed, crafting arrows with perfect fletching—not weapons, but offerings to be buried with a boy who'd dreamed of being a warrior.

Small acts of remembrance were taking shape throughout the village without any formal organization. The village was learning, instinctively and together, how to carry the weight of loss. How to honor a laugh that would never ring out again, a smile that had welcomed every stranger, a heart brave enough to throw itself between death and a friend without a moment's hesitation.

The first sensation was warmth—unexpected after the bone-deep cold that had claimed him. Alph's eyes opened slowly, blinking against the pale morning light filtering through the meeting hall's windows. The rafters overhead were familiar, but wrong somehow. Too sharp. Too real. For a moment, he floated in the space between sleep and waking, where the worst memories might still be dreams.

Then he tried to sit up, and the ache in his chest brought everything flooding back.

"Alph." Elara's voice was soft, carefully controlled. She appeared at his side instantly, as if she'd been watching him for signs of consciousness. "Don't try to move too quickly. You've been unconscious for almost a day."

The memories crashed over him in waves. Valerius's cold smile. Lyra's mad laughter. The blood magic that had torn through Kael's chest. The impossible cold that had answered his desperate fury. He remembered the rune burning in the air before him, the sensation of his mana core cracking under pressure it was never meant to bear.

"Kael," he whispered, though he already knew from Elara's expression what the answer would be.

"I'm sorry," she said, her voice breaking slightly. "He's gone, Alph. But he saved Finn. He saved all of them."

The conversation that followed was mercifully brief. Elara, her eyes red from sleepless vigil, filled in the gaps his fractured memory couldn't piece together. The academy students who'd arrived with Torsten. The battle outside while horror unfolded within. Hemlock's injuries. The prisoners. The questions that would need answering.

Mark had been clinical but gentle in his assessment. "Your mana core is gone," the young druid explained, his hands hovering over Alph's chest with diagnostic magic. "Completely shattered. By all rights, you should be dead—when a core breaks that completely, it usually takes the person with it." His expression was a mixture of wonder and confusion. "I have no idea how you're still alive. There's just... emptiness where it should be."

"Gone?" Alph's voice came out as a croak. "You mean I can't use magic anymore?"

"I don't know what to tell you. Without a mana core, traditional magic should be impossible." Mark's expression was sympathetic but baffled. "You pushed far beyond what any core could handle, and it cost you everything. The fact that you survived at all is... miraculous doesn't even begin to cover it."

Alph absorbed this with the detached numbness that seemed to coat everything since waking. His magic was gone. The village was safe, the threat ended.

And Kael was still dead.

"I need..." he started, then stopped, unsure how to finish. He looked at Elara, who sat beside him with dark circles under her eyes, and at Mark, who'd apparently spent the night keeping him alive. "Could I have a moment? Alone?"

Elara's face tightened with worry. "Alph, you shouldn't—"

"Please." The word came out sharper than he intended. "Just... I need to think."

Mark touched Elara's shoulder gently. "Come on. Let him process. We'll be right outside if he needs anything."

She hesitated for a long moment, clearly torn between giving him space and her protective instincts. Finally, she leaned down and pressed a kiss to his forehead. "I'm so glad you're alive," she whispered, then followed Mark from the hall.

Alph closed his eyes and let the silence settle around him like a shroud. In the distance, he could hear the quiet sounds of a village learning to move forward around an absence. But here, in the frost-touched hall where everything had changed, he was finally alone with the weight of what he'd done—and what it had cost.

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