Warning: Violence
"I love you."
As long as I heard it, I opened my eyes.
Humarap ako sakanya, nilagay nya ang braso nya sa likod ng ulo ko para gawin kong unan iyon.
Ang isang kamay nya ay marahang hinahaplos ang buhok ko.
"What did you say?" Mahinang tanong ko.
He smiled, "I love you." He repeated.
Oh god, it's sounds so good.
I smiled, he pressed a soft kiss on my forehead.
"What I would do without you?" I held his cheek.
"You'll always have me," he reassured.
Is this love?
Am I inlove?
Is this how it feels?
To be loved?
Now I understand why irene is healed, because love can heal, it can heal our soul.
It can mend our soul, it can makes us feel alive.
Sometimes we act like we can't love anymore because of the pain in the past, but after all we didn't really know that it was all we ever need.
To be loved.
"Why did you pursue me?" I asked softly.
I wanted to know, when I first saw I saw something in his eyes but I can't tell what it is.
He caressed my cheek, he looked at my eyes.
"Those blue eyes, it's like a deep ocean. It may be dangerous to lay an eyes on, but I found myself being drawn to it."
"I don't get it," naguguluhan kong tanong.
"These eyes were empty when I first saw it, and I saw myself in it. It may be empty but it's screaming, screaming for help. It's dying inside and it's suffering, I found you miserable."
That it's something to me, miserable? Yes I am.
It's screaming for help? Yes I am.
It's suffering? Yes I am.
It's dying inside? Yes I am.
And he see it right through my eyes?
All of my life I've been seen, but never notice.
Yet this man, he noticed me.
He noticed the pain inside me like he can read my eyes.
"But why me?" Mahina kong tanong.
"I wanted to help you in any way I can't explain, I want to get you out of that pain not because I pity you, but because I know you can't handle it." My gaze softened.
Something inside me fully crumbled, and this time I know what it is.
It's the high wall that I've built, very high that I can't even climb on it.
But he destroyed it, showing me to the world.
Extending his hand for me to see the world again, I've built that walls so I can hide myself from the cruel world.
The world may be cruel, but his hand reminded me that it's not always unfair.
Sometimes there are better days too, for everyone.
He made me realize the things that I used to hate before, he calm my demons.
"But you don't have to—"
"I wanted to, so let me."
Napangiti ako at tumango sakanya, siniksik ko ang mukha ko sa leeg nya.
"I need to go back to russia," Saad ko habang nakasiksik ang mukha sa leeg nya.
Amoy ko pa ang pabango nya, too manly it's seductive.
"Hm? Why is that?" He kissed the top of my head.
"I have some business to do," Saad ko.
Naka received kasi ako ng message mula kay peisley na kailangan ko na bumalik gawa ng tapos na ang 1 month vacation ko, by August 29 ay dapat nasa russia na ako.
"Aight, I need to go back there too," I nodded.
"When will you go back?" He asked.
"It's urgent kaya bukas na ng Gabi," Saad ko.
"Have you book a flight?" I shook my head.
"I don't need that, i have own private plane," I smirked at him.
"Damn right, you little millionaire," he chuckles.
Billionaire actually.
"Pero kailan ka aalis?" Kunot noo kong tanong.
"Tomorrow also, so I can be with you again," I laughs.
"You're obsessed you know that?" I pinch his nose lightly.
He chuckles, "damn right I am."
Napatili ako ng pumaibabaw sya sakin, siniil nya ako ng halik.
Nilapat ko ang mga kamay ko sa magkabilang gilid ng leeg nya at hinalikan sya pabalik.
The kiss was passionate, gentle, full of love.
Ilang minuto kaming nasa ganong sitwasyon bago lumayo, hinihingal kami pareho.
He rested his forehead against mine.
"I love you so damn much."
I smiled and look at his eyes, "I love you."
"How's the status of your mission?" Peisley asked.
I was currently now in russia, it has been 2 days since nung umalis kami sa Pinas.
Kasalukuyan akong nasa office ni peisley dito sa HeadQuarters, he's giving me another mission.
"It's good, I've gotten closed to him," malamig kong Saad.
And I fell in love too.
Damn, kung pwede lang sabihin.
"I have a new mission for you but this time it's not paid, but you can't refuse it," seryoso nitong Saad.
Napakunot ang noo ko.
Binuksan nya ang drawing nya sa ilalim ng desk nya.
Bahagyang napalaki ako ng mata nang iangat nya ang itim na sobre, nakaipit ito sa dalawang daliri nya.
Napakunot ang noo ko.
No, it can't be.
Who was it?
He placed it on the desk in front of me, "open it yourself."
Kinuha ko iyon at binuksan, kinuha ko ang black card na nasa loob.
Kumabog ang dibdib ko nang makita ko ang emblem na naka engraved sa gitna ng card.
Kulay pula ang ginamit sa pag engraved ng emblem.
This emblem, it can't be.
Kaede? Assasin rank 7.
Each assasins have black cards by the time we bacame an assasin, it was hold by the admins of the organization.
Kapag naging assasin ay ipapasa namin to sa isa sa mga admin, with a note.
The note is where we will write the name of the person na gustong naming pumatay saamin, and if we betrayed the organization the black card will be sent by that person.
Kaede is one of my best friend here, he became my friend along with alpha, delta, lota, lorde and epsilon.
Si kaede lang ang hindi nakapasok sa elite team pero sumunod naman sya kay lorde na rank 6, Rank 1-6 lang kasi ang pasok sa elite team.
Simula nung nalagay ako sa rank 1 hindi ko na sya nakikita dahil marami din mission na pinapadala sakanya, ang huling kita namin ay matapos ang Laban namin ng dating rank 1.
"But why?" Mahinang tanong ko.
"He serves the mafia, he's a spy."
"To whom is he serving?" I asked.
"To carpio," I gripped the black card.
"Go now, before it's too late."
Tumayo ako tinapon sa sahig ang black card.
I sighed heavily.
Why would you do this kaede?
I arrived at the dark alley where kaede was standing, he was leaning against the wall, smoking.
His black ombre hair was messy, he's wearing his black corporate attire.
Our eyes met, my dark blue eyes met his hazel green ones.
"Long time no see," mahinang Sabi nito na sapat lang na marinig ko, malalim ang boses nito at malamig.
"What's with this kaede?" Malamig kong tanong sakanya.
He dropped the cigarette on the ground and he stepped on it with his black leather shoes.
"You don't understand have you?" Napakunot ang noo ko.
Lumapit ako sakanya and I stopped just a few meters away from him, he pushed off the wall.
He walk towards me, until we're just few inches away.
"Now I get it, this is why your dad left you,' my eyes darkened as he said that.
Seryoso ko itong tiningnan sa mga mata nya, but his eyes remained Cold.
"Don't you dare bring it up," malamig kong asik sakanya.
Mabilis kong nahawakan ang kaliwang kamay nya gamit ang kaliwang kamay ko nang akma nya akong sasaksakin, mabilis ko sinapak sa gilid ng labi nya.
Napa atras sya and I took that advantage na tadyakan sya sa sikmura, tumalsik ito sa pader at tumama ang likod nya Doon.
Napaubo sya ng dugo at napaluhod sa sahig, I stared at him coldly.
"Weak already? That was just a sample," malamig kong asik habang lumalakad palapit sakanya.
"Is that all you got? This won't do karma, you won't be able to defeat your father like this—"
Pagkasabi nya non ay sya rin pag angat nya ng tingin saakin, agad ko syang sinipa sa mukha.
Tuluyan syang napatumba, nilabas ko ang baril na nasa likod ko at tinutok iyon sakanya.
"Heartless are we?" He chuckled.
Kahit nagdudugo na ang pumutok na labi nito ay nagawa parin talaga nyang tumawa?
Binaba ko ang baril at naglakad palapit sakanya, I crouched down in front of him.
Lumuhod sya at tinitigan ako.
He stared at my eyes, a small smile form on his lips.
I pointed the gun at his forehead and pressed it on his forehead.
"Why did you betray the organization, kaede?" Malamig kong tanong sakanya.
Matalim ko syang tinitigan sa mata nya.
"Your father, I owe him a lot," mabigat na ang paghinga nito.
"And that explains your act of betrayal?" Madiin kong asik sakanya.
I stood up and pointed the at him, I heard him chuckles.
"Aren't you betraying someone too?" Humigpit ang hawak ko sa baril.
"What will happen if he finds out?" He mocked.
"It's part of our life, betraying someone," malamig kong Sabi.
"Of course it is, but you'll be dead if he finds out." I loaded the gun.
He chuckles, "Vladimir is no ordinary
Mafia. He's higher than your father, what will happen if he finds out? He'll fucking haunt you until you die."
"Send my regards to Satan," was my last words before I shoot his head.
The loud sound of the gun echoed throughout the dark alley, a wind came and blew some strands of my hair.
"So, you're no longer the scaredy-cat huh?"
I gasp lowly and my eyes widened as I heard that voice, the voice that's been inside my head the whole 17 years.
Slowly, I turned to him.
Then I met those hazel green eyes again, the one that's been keeping me awake.
The one that's been in my nightmare the whole 17 years.
This presence of him, it's been 17 years since I saw him.
Father.