Warning: Violence, R18.
"What Is it about my mission?" Tanong ko kay Guild.
Nung na receive ko kasi agad ang text nya ay pumunta ako agad dito sa HeadQuarters.
"The time given for the mission will be moved." My brows furrowed.
"What do you mean?" Takang tanong ko.
"Instead of 1 year it will be 5 months," napasapo ako sa noo ko.
"How are you sure I am suppose to kill him with that short period of time?" Inis na tanong ko.
"Right now you're doing progress, no more buts and questions white." Napairap nalang ako.
Ano pa nga bang magagawa ko? Pero siguro sapat na Yung 5 months.
Nitong nagdaang mga linggo kasi ay pansin ko na Mas nagiging malapit kami sa isat isa, napapadalas ang paglabas namin text at tawag.
"I have a mission to give." Tiningnan ko sya ng masama.
"Akala ko ba nasa bakasyon ako? Bakit ako bibigyan ng misyon?" Naiirita kong tanong.
"You'll like this." Tinaasan ko sya ng kilay.
"Eliminate the Phoenix Organization," Napasinghap ako ng mahina at tiningnan sya ng nagtataka.
Phoenix Organization, it's an organization connected with the Sylvester Bor Mafia.
Their leader was Fukumi a woman, or people in their organization called her Lady Phoenix.
I fought with her before but she got escaped, Vladimir saved her that day.
"You'll make a move with the elite team, take them down in your own ways." Napangisi ako.
Looks like we'll meet again, but this time you'll be dead fukumi.
Tinalikuran ko na si guild at lumabas na ako ng building.
Gabi naman ngayon, suot ko ang Elite uniform ko at may Hanfu white Face mask akong suot.
Sumakay ako sa kotse ko, at nag drive pauwi ng mansion ni Irene.
Hinubad ko ang face mask ko bago lumabas ng sasakyan.
Bubuksan ko na Sana ang pinto nang bumukas ito at bumungad si Irene.
Agad syang lumabas at sinarado ang pinto, napakunot ako ng noo sa inasta nya.
"Umakyat ka Don papunta sa kwarto mo, nandito si Vladimir sa living room." Mahinang Sabi nya na sapat lang na kaming dalawa ang nakakarinig.
"Ha? Bakit?" Nagtataka kong tanong.
"Basta explain ko sayo mamaya, Dali na." Sunod sunod nalang akong napatango ako at naglakad papunta sa likod.
Nasa may bandang garden kasi ang balcony ng kwarto ko.
Pagdating ko sa garden ay tinalon ko ang pader, hindi naman ganon kataas iyon sakto lang na maaabot ng kamay ko kapag tumalon ako.
Nang makaakyat ako ay tumalon ako patawid sa balcony at kumapit sa railings ng balcony.
Pag apak ko sa balcony ay binuksan ko ang sliding glass door at pumasok sa kwarto.
Hindi kasi ako pwede makita ni Vladimir, naka uniform ako ng assasin.
Alam naman ni Irene na magkaaway ang mafia at assasin pero grabe din talaga hindi ko alam kung bakit nya ako blinind date sakanya, pero hindi naman alam ni Irene ang tungkol sa mission ko na patayin si Vladimir kaya kahit papano ay nakatulong din sya.
Nagbihis ako ng white buttoned up long sleeve at white pants sinuot ko ang Channel Black belt ko at sinuot ko din ang black coat ko, kinuha ko sa walk in closet ang Louboutin Heels ko at ang Channel Double Flap Shoulder Bag ko.
Kinuha ko ang dalawang cellphone ko nilagay ko ang isang cellphone ko na Galaxy Z Fold 6 ito ang gamit ko sa kapag kinocontact ko sila guild kumbaga work phone, while the other one was IPhone 16 ito ang casual kong ginagamit nandito contact ko kila Irene.
Lumabas ako ng kwarto ko at bumaba na, pagbaba ko sa living room ay nakita ko si Vladimir na nakaupo sa couch nakakandong sakanya si yensen.
Dapat ako naka kandong dyan, naunahan pako ng bata.
Just Kidding.
"Tita!" Napaangat ang tingin nilang tatlo saakin, nag wave sakin si yensen.
Aba ayaw nya talaga umalis? Hindi ko alam bakit nakaramdam ako ng inis sa batang ito.
"Going somewhere?" Vladimir asked.
"Yeah, I have business to do." I said.
Business ko papatayin si fukumi.
"Where exactly?"
"Ah, sa Clark." Sagot ko.
Yun kasi ang Sabi sakin ni alpha, nasa clark daw ngayon si fukumi.
"Want me to drop you off?" Sunod sunod akong napailing.
"No, no. It's fine." Pagtanggi ko.
Hindi talaga pwede, baka mapaaga pagpatay ko sayo.
Joke.
"Aight, be careful." Pagtango nya at binaling ang atensyon kay yensen.
Bahagya akong napanguso, bakit ba kasi nandyan yang batang yan sa kandungan nya?
Tsk.
"What's the matter?" Napaangat ang tingin ko at umiling sakanya.
Tinawag ako ni Irene na nasa kusina at pumunta naman ako Doon.
Nakita ko pa si kuya arseen na tinutulungan sya magluto, lumingon ito sakin at nginitian ako tinanguan ko lang sya.
Kuya arseen also knows everything about me.
Tinapik nya ang balikat ko bago lumabas ng kusina.
"Where are you going?" Mahinang tanong sakin ni Irene habang hinahalo nya ang niluluto nya.
"Mission," Tipid kong sagot at binuksan ang refrigerator tsaka kumuha ng malamig na tubig.
"Be careful okay?" Tumango ako sakanya bago nagsalin ng tubig sa baso.
"Anyway, Vladimir is here kasi napadalaw lang daw sya at gustong makita ang mga baby nya." Ininom ko ang tubig na nasa baso.
"Or... Baka ibang baby nya ang gustong makita." Napaubo ako, gago talaga.
"Siraulo," Sambit ko sakanya at binaba ang baso ng tubig.
"Bakit? Hindi ba?" Nang aasar ang mga tingin nito.
"Tigilan mo nga ako," Pag Iwas ko ng tingin sakanya.
Tumawa sya ng mahina.
"I have to go," Tumingin si Irene sakin at tumango.
Ang paglabas ko sa kusina ay pagpasok ni kuya arseen at ng mga bata.
Napakunot ang noo ko, "Vladimir left already, he said it's an emergency." Saad sakin ni kuya arseen habang binubuhat ang mga bata paupo sa upuan.
Napatango ako at lumabas na.
Pagdating ko sa parking lot ng mansion ay pumasok ako sa kotse ko, sinet up ko ang earpiece device ko at nag connect sa elite team.
Connecting...
Connected.
"Speaking of the devil." I smirked as I heard Delta.
"Oh yeah?" I spoke as I started the engine of my Mazda.
"How's Vladimir huh?" Alpha asked.
"Good." Tipid kong sagot.
"Getting close?" Lota asked.
"Close enough but not that close." I answered.
We all chuckles.
We arrived at Clark Hotel and we enter the back exit.
Me, Delta, Alpha, Lota, and Lorde are now on the stairs.
Epsilon is in his car, hacking the CCTV's.
We went inside the stock room of the hotel and changed our clothes into our uniform.
Paglabas namin ng stock room ay dumiretso kami sa tapat ng unit ni fukumi.
Agad sinipa ni delta at lota sa panga ang dalawang bodyguard dahilan upang makatulog ang mga ito.
Kinapa ni delta ang bulsa ng isang bodyguard at kinuha ang key card.
Swinipe iyon ni delta at bumukas ang pinto, nakapasok kami at nilock ko ang pinto.
"Who's in there?" Isang boses ng babae.
I smirked.
Nagtuloy tuloy kami sa paglakad at bumungad si fukumi samin.
Agad syang tinadyakan ni lota sa sikmura, napaatras ito at umupo ng kaunting dugo makapal at mataas ang takong ng heels ni lota kaya alam kong masakit iyon.
"Elite team-" hindi pa natatapos ang pagsalita nito nang sapakin sya ni alpha sa mukha, sinegundahan ni lorde ng tadyak sa dibdib.
Napaatras pa ito sa TV, hinagisan ko ng dagger pero nailagan nya kaya tumama sa TV pero pag ilag nya ay sinalubong sya ng Tadyak ni delta sa tagiliran.
Napa igik ito sa sakit at dumura ng dugo.
Sasapakin na Sana ni lota ng hawakan ni fukumi ang pulsuhan nya, but lota reverse it.
Inikot nya ang kamay nya napabitaw si fukumi sa pulsuhan nya at si lota naman ang may hawak sa pulsuhan ni fukumi.
Hinila ni lota si fukumi papunta sa direksyon ni delta sabay tinulak patungo kay delta, agad sinapak ni delta si fukuma sa ilong.
Umupo ako sa couch, I crossed my arms and legs.
Fukumi can't see our faces, we're all wearing a mask.
Napalingon ako sa pinto ng bumukas ang pinto, It was Vladimir with his men.
I smirked.
Napatigil sila fukumi, delta, lota, lorde at alpha.
Hawak na ni alpha si fukumi hawak nya ang leeg ni fukumi at ang isang kamay nya ay nasa likod ni fukumi, alam kong may kutsilyo Doon.
"Time to join epsilon." I whispered, Tama lang na rinig ni epsilon sa kabilang linya.
Nasalo ko ang hinagis ni Vladimir na dagger, too slow baby.
Biglang isa isang natumba ang anim na tauhan ni Vladimir, it was epsilon.
He was somewhere, using a sniper.
Tumayo ako at sinenyasan sila alpha na magpatuloy.
Mabilis ang pangyayari at hindi ko namalayan na nasa harapan ko na si Vladimir, akmang susuntukin ako nito ng ilagan ko sya at tadyakan ko sikmura nya napaatras sya sa sakit dahil suot ko ang Louboutin Heels ko.
I'm sorry Vladimir, babawi nalang ako.
Naglabas ito ng dagger, nagkatitigan kami sa mata bago ko ilagan ang suntok nya.
Sa pag ilag ko ay nahuli nya ang pulsuhan ko, nilagay nya iyon sa likod ko at sinandal ako sa pader.
I groaned, sobrang higpit ng pagkakahawak nya.
Tangina masakit ha, mamaya ka sakin.
Hindi pa sya nakuntento at kinuha ang isa pang pulsuhan ko, hinawakan nya ang dalawang pulsuhan ko gamit ang isang kamay nya.
Sobrang higpit.
Nasa sulok kami kaya alam kong nahihirapan si epsilon iasinta ang sniper.
Putangina.
"What's wrong? Can't move?" He teased in his deep baritone voice sobrang lamig hg boses nito, damn why does that sound hot?
Ay putangina kailangan ko makawala.
Ang isang kamay nya ay hinawakan ang batok ko.
Shit this man.
Mas malakas sya sakin.
Naramdaman ko ang pagkalas nito sa akin at pag atras nito.
I looked over my shoulder, nakita ko na may Tama ang balikat nito.
Si epsilon iyon panigurado.
Deserve, masakit Yung ginawa mo sakin ha.
Agad ko syang tinadyakan sa tagiliran at sesegundahan na Sana ng sapak nang hawakan nya ang kamao ko agad ko itong sinapak ang pulsuhan nya upang mapabitaw sya.
"White let's go." Agad akong pumunta ng balcony nang tawagin ako ni alpha, tinapunan ko pa ng malamig na tingin si Vladimir na masama ang tingin saakin at si fukumi na nakabulagta sa couch at may nakatarak na dagger sa leeg.
Nauna na sila lota at Delta na tumakas.
Sabay kaming tumalon ni alpha ng balcony, maayos kaming bumagsak sa sahig at agad na tumakbo palabas sa emergency exit.
Sumakay kami sa kanya kanyang kotse at nagmaneho na paalis.
I heard epsilon soft laugh on the other line, "What so funny?" Delta asked.
Nasa iisang kotse si Delta at epsilon.
"Grabe, kung nakita nyo lang kung paano hawakan ni Vladimir si Maeve." Epsilon laughs, I rolled my eyes.
"Shut up." Malamig kong Sabi.
Lota chuckles, "I noticed that."
"Kaya lang naman nagtagal kasi ang tagal umasinta ng sniper ni epsilon," dahilan ko.
"Sinadya ko bakit ba? Nag enjoy ako panoorin kayo." I heard them laughs on the other line.
Napasinghap ako at tinurn off ang earpiece device ko, nilapag ko iyon sa drawer ng kotse sa tapat ng passenger seat.
napabuntong hininga ako, grabe din ang ginawa ko kay Vladimir.
Sa ginawa nya sakin kanina ay tingin ko hindi sya sanay manakit ng babae, hindi nya tinatarget ang vitals ng katawan ko.
Hinuhuli nya kung saan ko isasalag ang kamay ko at nung nahuli nya ay hinawakan nya iyon at cinorner ako sa pader.
Samantalang ilang sipa ang nagawa ko sakanya.
My phone vibrated, I looked at the caller.
Incoming call, 'Vlad'.
I took off my mask and answered the phone.
"Kitten?" Nang marinig ko ang malalim na boses nya ay may kuryente ang dumaloy sa katawan ko hanggang sa pagitan ng hita ko.
"Yes?" I softly said.
"Are you still at the Clark?" Mahinang tanong nito na sapat lang para marinig ko.
"No, hindi na natuloy meeting ko eh. Why'd you ask?" I bit my lower lip.
"Where are you?"
I glanced at the time of my phone, '10:46PM'.
"I guess I'll check in a hotel, kakaalis ko lang din kasi at kumain pa ako sa restaurant." I lied.
Nice lie Maeve.
"I'm here in Pampanga, can I stay with you for the night?"
Natahimik ako sandali bago nagsalita, "sure, I'll check in at royce hotel I'll send you the unit." Pinatay na nya ang tawag.
Mag 11 na din kasi at medyo tinatamad na ako mag drive.
Before getting out of the car, nagbihis muna ako sa kaninang suot ko na formal attire.
Kinuha ko ang shoulder bag ko at pumasok sa hotel.
Nakapag check in na ako at kasalukuyang nasa unit ko, sinend ko kay Vladimir ang unit ko at Sabi ko hihintayin ko sya.
It's already 12:30, I heard a knock from the door.
Pagbukas ko ay bumungad sakin si Vladimir.
He went in and closed the door behind him.
He looks mad.
His hair was messy, his sleeve was folded up to his elbow, some veins in his hands are showing.
Tiningnan ko ito sa mga mata and I can see he's mad by the look of it.
"Are you okay?" Tanong ko pa kahit alam ko naman ang sagot.
Marahan nya akong hinila palapit sakanya at niyakap ako, sinuksok nya ang mukha nya sa leeg ko.
He breathe heavily.
Dahan dahan kong hinaplos ang malapad na likod nya.
"What happened?" I softly asked.
He just groaned, a few more while I can feel that he started smelling my neck.
Inhaling and exhaling my scent.
Nakaramdam ako ng kuryente sa pagitan ng hita ko.
Huminga akong malalim.
Nararamdaman ko ang pag init ng katawan ko kahit bukas ang aircon.
Mahina ang napasinghap nang maramdaman ko na lumapat ang labi nya sa leeg ko.
My lips slightly parted, i can feel electronic on my womanhood.
I bit my lower lip, shit.
"May I?" He politely said.
Wala sa wisyo, marahan akong tumango sakanya.
He take that as a yes, napapikit ako nang maramdaman na sunod sunod ang paglapat ng labi nya sa leeg ko.
"Ah.." I lowly whimpered when he slightly licked my neck.
He then did a wet kisses on my neck, each kisses I whimpered.
"Ahm.."
I held the back of his head, I arched my neck.
When I chin up he sucked on my throat, "ah.."
Eto na siguro pangbawi ko, nasaktan ko sya kanina eh.
Napadilat ako ng mata ng naramdaman kong nawala ang labi nya sa leeg ko.
Taka ko syang tiningnan.
"I'm sorry, are you okay?" His voice was ragged, he's holding back.
"Why did you stop?" I asked, he looked at me directly at my eyes.
"I'm losing control on myself, so I stop while I still can." He coldly said.
"No, please. Don't stop yourself." I don't know where did that words came from.
All I know is I want him.
May kung anong sumisigaw saakin na i want to feel his touch.
His kisses.
"You don't know what you do to me, kitten." He looked away
I held his cheek "Please," I plead.
"Fuck," He cursed and pinched the bridge of his nose.
His eyes darkened as he saw the pleading in my eyes.
"No maeve." His jaw clenching.
"Please." I plead again.
"Once I started I won't be able to stop." There's a hint of warning in his voice.
"I don't care." I stared at his eyes.
"Last chance to back down." He coldly said.
"I wont-" He silence me with his lips, I automatically responded to him.
It was an intense hungry kiss, I felt his hand on my back and the other was on the back of my head.
I wrapped my arms around his neck, I gasp as he bit my lower lip but he took advantage of it he shoved his tongue inside my mouth.
"Hmmmm.." I whimpered as he sucked my tongue, inilalayan nya ako pahiga nang hindi humihiwalay sa halikan namin at naramdaman ko ang malambot na kama sa likod ko.
He broke the kiss, his kiss went down my jaw to my neck again.
I arched my neck and held the back of his head, "Ah.." I whimpered as he suck my neck.
I wasn't wearing my coat and he started unbuttoning my shirt.
I gasp as his lips went down my collarbone, to my chest.
He fully unbuttoned my shirt, I arched my back as I took off my shirt exposing my half body on him.
I stared at him and he held my gaze, those damn grey eyes hypnotizing me.
I gasp when he removed my pushed up bra, exposing my pink nipples.
"takaya krasivaya, takaya moya." I felt a shiver down my spine as I heard him speaking in his native language.
'So beautiful, so mine.'
I automatically closed my eyes as he kissed me again, he rolled me on top of him as he sat down on the bed so I was sitting on his lap my legs are either on his thighs.
I removed his coat and threw it on the floor, I started unbuttoning his shirt as he kiss and suck on my neck.
I started grinding against him, once I finished unbuttoning his shirt I looked down at him.
He hands caressing my back, I glanced at his shoulders and saw no wound.
Nagtataka man ay hindi ko na pinakita baka magtaka pa sya.
I closed my eyes as he started kissing my shoulder, down to my collarbone to my chest.
I was already breathing heavily.
"Ah.." I whimpered as he put my right nipple inside his mouth, he cupped my other breast.
"Ugh.." I moaned as he swirled his tongue on my nipple, I gripped on his hair.
I was grinding on top of him while he's sucking on my nipple.
Sunod sunod ang pagsinghap ko habang nilalaro ng dila nya ang utong ko.
I bit my lower lip when he sucked my other nippled, ang kaninang pinaglalaruan nya ay nilalamas nya na Basa iyon ng laway nya.
He pushed me on the bed, he was now on top of me.
He stared at my half naked body, I know it was full of marks.
He slowly removed my pants, "next time, wear a fucking skirt." He angrily said while pulling off my pants.
"O-okay.." mahinang Sabi ko.
After my pants he also pulled off of me my underwear, I was about to close my legs when he held my thighs.
"Backing out now?" He huskily said, I shook my head.
"Good, now let me see you."
Slowly, I let him parted my legs.
He leaned down on my womanhood, I gasp and my body shivered as he spat on it.
I felt the saliva on my clit and it slipped down on my entrance.
"Ah!" I held on his head as he licked on the slit of my womanhood.
He put my thighs on his broad shoulders, I gripped on his hair.
"U-ugh! Ahmm... oh!" Sunod sunod kong ungol nang sipsipin nya ang kaselanan ko.
He lapped on my womanhood, that was just a lapped but I was already panting, screaming and crying in pleasure.
Sinusubsob ko ang mukha nya sa pagkababae ko, "Ah! Vlad.. oh!" I cried.
Suddenly he inserted his tongue and hardened it, "ugh! Oh my.." I gripped on the bed sheet, I was tilting my head from side to side.
I feel like I'm losing my mind, it's so fucking good.
I arched my back slightly as he slowly inserted his middle finger inside me, "U-ugh.."
He pulled away from my womanhood but his finger still inside me, he leaned down on my face and planted a kiss on my cheek down to my jaw and neck.
He slowly moved his finger inside me as he sucked on my neck.
"Ah! Uhmmm.. Oh! Ugh!" Malakas na ungol ko when he moved his finger fast and added his index finger.
I buried my face in his neck, "Ah.. oh my god." Hinihingal na ungol ko sa leeg nya.
"Can't handle it?" He teased as he moved his fingers even faster.
"Ugh.. fuck! Ah!" I held on his back, I was already scratching it he groaned.
He's not contented, he even added his ring finger inside me.
"Ah.. shit! W-why three? Ugh!" He pulled my hair to face him.
"I need you to get ready for me kitten, and with how tight your fucking pussy is right now I think you need to be stretched a bit." He whispered, at those words I felt something inside me building up and wanted to release.
"I-im near, ah.. oh! Vlad." I cried.
I can't tilt my head because he was gripping on my hair, holding it firmly.
I cried in pleasure as I came, I felt his fingers curled up inside me.
"Ahmm.." I whimpered as he withdrew his fingers, I saw a white sticky cream on his long fingers dripping down to his palm and knuckles.
I bit my lower lip as he licked it and sucked his fingers until it was clean.
I'm still panting, while looking at him.
Fucking hot.
I sighed heavily as he removed his hand on my hair.
He unbuckled his belt and took off his pants along with his boxer.
I gulp when i saw his erected manhood, it was veiny, thick and long.
He smirked, "ready?" I looked up at him and slowly nodded.
"Good girl, spread your legs wider." He commanded, I obeyed.
Napasinghap ako ng maramdaman ang ulo ng kahabaan nya sa hiwa ko.
He parted it with his fingers, and he slowly pushed himself inside.
Nahigit ko ang hininga ko nang maramdaman ko ang unti-unti nyang pagpasok.
"A-ah!" Napahawak ako sa braso nya.
Sobrang sakit, it was just the tip but fuck.
"Shh, relax." He showered my face with soft kisses.
"It hurts." I sobbed.
"Relax your body, breathe. Let me in kitten." As I relaxed my body and sighed heavily, he took that advantage to fully entered himself.
My fingers dug into his arm and my other hand gripping his wrist.
"Ugh!" I cried.
"Shh." I arched my neck as he started kissing my neck.
"U-ugh.. ah.. uhmmm.. oh.." I moaned as he move smoothly.
"Fuck, just like that. Relax kitten." Paos ang boses nito.
He lifted my legs and he hang it on his shoulders, I tried to meet his thrusts but I cried when he held my stomach.
"No, you're gonna take what I give you." He bit my thigh.
The pain vanished, changed with pleasure.
Each thrusts from him I was moaning, panting.
He's so big, and it feels so fucking good.
When I came he flipped me onto my stomach, I held on the headboard as he re-entered me.
"Ugh! Ah! Shit." I moaned loudly when he pounded me so deep.
He held my hips and moved so roughly.
"Ugh! Oh! Vlad! Ah-fuck!" He was pushing it so deep inside me.
He will pull it out leaving only the head and then forcefully pushing it back, so damn good.
I gasp when he pulled my hair back, napatingala ako and I saw him looking at our joined body.
"Ugh! Vlad.. oh! Ah!" I cried.
"Say my name, kitten." He spank my ass.
"Vlad! Oh! Ah! Ugh!" He was already pounding deep inside me.
Sobrang Sagad, sobrang baon.
I gasped as he choked me, not hurt but tight and firm.
He's just pressing the sides of my neck, "So fucking tight, kitten. I could do this all day." He whispered.
I held his wrist that was on my neck, i was already panting I couldn't moan properly.
He suddenly let go of me and pushed my back so that he was pinning my half body on the bed, my ass are lifted up and he was still pounding so deep inside me.
I was already crying, and screaming.
My wrists are on my back, he's helding it tightly.
Naka baon ang mukha ko sa unan.
This is too much, but I can't tell him to stop.
I'm enjoying it.
"Damn right, clench your walls kitten. Take my cock." My walls tightened around his cock.
"Ah! Ugh! Ah! Vlad!" I screamed in pleasure.
A few more thrusts and I came but he didn't stop moving until a few more thrusts from him he pulled out of me and he explode his cum on my ass.
Ramdam ko ang mainit na katas nito Doon, sobrang dami.
When he let go of my wrists i sighed heavily at tuluyan akong napadapa sa kama.
Hingal na hingal ako.
"You alright?" He sighed heavily.
"Yeah." Hingal kong sagot dito.
He grabbed the tissue on the bed side table, he started wiping my ass.
"Lay on your back," I didn't say anything, I just did what he said.
Then he started cleaning my womanhood, after that he cleaned himself.
He wore his boxer short, and lay down beside me.
He pulled me in his arms so that I was resting my head on his chest, he wiped some sweat on my forehead.
He kissed my forehead, "thankyou," I frowned.
"For what?" I closed my eyes as I asked.
"This, don't worry. You're mine now and I don't let go What's mine," he said and I nodded.
He don't let go What's his? Will he still wouldn't let me go if he found out I'm his enemy?
Siniksik ko ang mukha ko sa leeg nya, I smelled his scent.
Whenever I'm in his arms I feel so safe, away from anything that could harm me.
I guess I'm home.
"Irene told me everything." Napadilat ako ng mata sakanya at biglang nakaramdam ng kaba.
"About what?" Kinakabahan man ay inayos kong hindi mautal.
"About your past, how you're still stuck from it, how you're still grieving, still suffering from it." Napatingala ako sakanya.
"Did, she say anything else?" I asked.
"Yeah, she said you're having a nightmare every time you tried to sleep. That's why you don't sleep at night," parang akong nabunutan ng tinik sa lalamunan ko, napahinga ako ng malalim.
I buried my face in his neck again.
"Tell me kitten, the day you suddenly called me. And you told me that you have a nightmare, is that it? Did you had a sleep paralysis again?" I slowly nodded.
I felt him kissed the top of my head, "Kitten, whatever is in your mind you'll always tell me okay? I want to know you better and I want to understand you." He held my chin between his index finger and thumb and lifted it up so I was looking at him.
"Promise me." He commanded.
What is this? I feel like something in me crumbling again.
Suddenly, I heard a sound of a young girl crying.
It's in my head, and I know that's my inner child.
She's not crying because of pain,
She's crying because finally, finally, there's someone who's willing to understand us.
To listen to us.
All the demons inside me vanished as he pats my head, he gently tucked the strands of my hair behind my ear.
I stared at his eyes, those grey eyes.
Those grey eyes when I first saw it I know he's already interested but he held himself back, and now it's offering a help.
A help I never knew I needed, all I did in my whole life was to seek revenge.
To get stronger, I kept it all to myself because I gave up to get out of this pain.
I was blinded by revenge that I forget I needed help, I was busy improving myself to the point I shut myself to the world.
I vowed not to cry, yet here I am.
Crying in front of him, not because of the pain.
But because finally, I heard those comforting words.
"Shh, let it out." He sat down and leaned against the headboard.
He put me on top of him and hugged Me.
"Let it out, I'm here," Sunod sunod na ang luha na lumaba sa mga mata ko.
"I-im so angry, why did it had to happen?" My voice is shaking.
He caressed my head.
"I tried to get out in this pain, I couldn't. Why it has to be like this for me? S-si Irene, she's healed about it. Kuya arseen taking care of her and healed her, he's always right there for her. While me? I had no one, naiinggit ako sakanya kasi I know that she's already healed, she's not wasting her time stuck in the past like me. Sobrang sakit, how could he do this to me? 17 years for fuck sake, until now I keeps repeating in my dreams. Hindi ko alam kung ano nang gagawin ko," I complained to him while crying.
He pulled me in his arms, and I buried my face in his neck.
"Don't suffer anymore, aight? I'm here," He caressed my head.
That night he held me tight in his arms, all I did was cry and cry in his arms.
That's the first time I ever complained about everything to someone, I never complain to Irene about how I felt because I don't want her to remember the pain again.
All he did was listen to my cries and comfort me, kissing me on my head, on my face.
He's the one keeps wiping my tears.
Who knows that an assasin like me can still shed tears?
Even the pain inside me is already anger, I still managed to shed tears.
But not because of the pain or anger, but because of the relief that finally, finally I found someone who's willing to understand me and listen to me.
Nothing in my mind sank in that time, not my missions, nothing.
I just cried, like how my inner kid in me cried.