Cherreads

my heart is a public bus

DaoistZOQKBi
7
chs / week
The average realized release rate over the past 30 days is 7 chs / week.
--
NOT RATINGS
45
Views
Synopsis
fate of betrayal
Table of contents
VIEW MORE

Chapter 1 - play boy

The Mask of Desire Chapter One: The Hollow Man

Leon had always been a master of masks. His charm was a weapon forged in the fires of abandonment, his smile a carefully crafted lie. From the moment he could remember, the void of his parents' absence had become a cavernous pit inside him — one he tried desperately to fill with fleeting touches, empty words, and the fleeting warmth of strangers' bodies. Each woman he seduced was not a conquest, but a desperate plea: see me, love me, don't leave me.

But the emptiness always swallowed them whole.

His reflection in the cracked mirror of his apartment was a stranger's face — smooth, handsome, but hollow behind the eyes. Tonight, as every night, Leon stood alone before it, whispering confessions to the man who could never answer.

"You wear your confidence like armor, but inside, you're just a ghost."

His laugh cracked like broken glass. The loneliness was suffocating.

Chapter Two: Mara

When Mara appeared, everything changed. She wasn't like the others. Older, with a smoky aura of danger and wisdom, her gaze pierced through his façade, unraveling him thread by thread.

Their bond was immediate and consuming. Mara's stories — fragmented, shadowed by pain — seeped into Leon's dreams. She was a woman who had walked through fire and come back scarred but unbowed. He was drawn to her brokenness like a moth to a flame.

They crossed the line between craving and care, desire and dependency.

But Mara carried a secret buried deep beneath her skin, a truth Leon wasn't ready for.

Chapter Three: The Revelation

It was an ordinary evening that shattered everything.

"I have to tell you something," Mara said, her voice trembling like a fragile thread.

Leon's heart lurched. What now?

She confessed — the pieces of her past, the dark history of abuse, abandonment, and the life she tried to escape. Then, the final blow: she was his mother.

The words hung in the air, suffocating, impossible.

The woman who had haunted his dreams, who had become his refuge, was the origin of his emptiness and the echo of his worst fears.

Chapter Four: The Descent

The revelation fractured Leon's mind. The need for validation twisted into a monstrous self-loathing. The boundaries between love and revulsion collapsed. The woman who had been his salvation was now his torment.

And the illness — Mara's illness — was his inheritance too, an invisible shackle tightening around his soul.

Leon's world became a labyrinth of shame and despair. Every moment was a battle between the man he wanted to be and the hollow shell he had become.

He stopped reaching out. He stopped fighting.

Chapter Five: The Final Mask

In the sterile silence of a hospital room, Leon lay alone, the weight of years pressing down on his chest like a crushing tide. The disease ravaged his body, but it was the poison inside — guilt, grief, and the unbearable truth — that claimed him.

He refused treatment, choosing oblivion over a life haunted by shadows.

As he faded, memories washed over him — Mara's smile, the faces of the women he had loved and used, the boy he never knew how to be.

His last act was to write letters, letters he never sent, words pouring out like blood from a wound no one could see.