I now understand the true meaning of "there are times when you are better of not knowing things".
I always destroy myself, versions of myself. Changing who I was and who I wanted to be.
I am the best version of myself.
I loved a person.
I do not have any regrets.
It wasn't love. It was the idea of keeping someone no matter if they had the same feelings as me or not.
I hate forcing on someone, instead I was a puppy. Following them, being obedient and loyal until they destroy me for leaving me.
I was destroying them.
I hated that of myself. I want to change, be the better version of myself.
I never change and never will.
Always appeared as a straightforward person, nonchalant type of person. I had my humour side, and the argumentative side. I was what people considered normal.
Unless we talk about the people who I have been obsessed with.
I was always dependent on someone even if I'm strong enough to live my life on my own.
I was emotionally needy.
I don't understand what's wrong with me.
Have I always felt like this… It's like life has gone against me.