I stood, filled with all kind of emotions not sure what to to feel anymore. He quickly jumped out of the bed and came to where i was standing trying to touch me but i evaded his approach, my eyes were not even focused on him anymore rather on the lady who was on the bed, she looked oddly familiar to me as if i had seen her some where, "Baby its not what you think it is" he said trying to hold my hand but before i could even say anything the she spoke, "Lucas enough, isn't it obvious to you that she herd every thing we just talked about, i mean there is nothing to hide anymore and its best that she found out atleast we can now love each other without her being in the story" at this point my blood was boiling to the maximum. "will you just shut up" he said without even looking at her , his gaze never leaving my sight. I tried as much to say something but nothing could come out of my mouth. "Matter of fact leave" he turned back and dragged the lady out of the room, shutting the door from inside. with all that commotion no word escaped my mouth, until when he hugged me from behind. "Is it true....is true what i just heard?" I could hear my voice trembling, i was angry and furious but the truth shuttered me in ways i could not have imagined. "Baby its not what you think you heard, trust me i can explain" he said, "you can explain?" I laughed sarcastically, "You must think i am a small and stupid young girl, who would believe every words that you said, i must look pathetic yo you right?" i could no longer hide my anger at that moment. "Okay baby maybe it is that you heard but.....but i was just doing that because i wanted you to let go and follow your dreams." he said but lies, they were all lies.
"And your still lying" i shook my head in disappointment, "I was ready to give up everything for a lying cheater who can't even admit it even when you have been caught in your own lie, did you ever love me really?" i asked with tears rolling down my face. "You see, this, this is exactly why i found comfort in another woman's hands, you are just so hard to love, you cry about every thing and now you are blaming me. you cant even love yourself who do you think can love you when, you were just so easy to get, so easy to manipulate, all i needed to do was be upset with you for sometime and you would do anything for me, so pathetic, yes i cheated and i was also planning in taking everything from you to repay myself of all the time i had to put up with his, exactly this, lets be honest with each other, you my dear need me, you are nothing without me." His words crashed me like nothing has ever did, so all this time thats what i looked to him, i could not help but let out a smile, his words echoed in my head repeatedly, "you need me, you are nothing without me" I realised that his perspective of me was even worse that i had initially thought. Without a word i just turned and left, "You will come back begging just like the little girl that you are, trust me you need me because no one will ever put up with your stupid tantrum" his word kept digging a hole way to dip in me. As soon i reached outside i could not help myself but let out s loud cry, i had never cried like this even when my mom had left me but now i did, wishing if she was here to hold me until the pain goes away. When i got home i had no strength what so ever to do anything all i wanted to do was just sleep the pain away. His words still echoing louder and louder in my head, knowing tat there was some truth in what he just had said, i was all alone he was the only person left that i knew and even he is gone now
Days had passed, i had to move own with my life and know what to do since all his plans were mine. my mom store was running to the ground and no matter how hard i was trying to save it, there was nothing i could actually do. For a moment i thought what if i just sell it and see what to do with the money, but i just could not let it go. living in suburb was mot easy, especially for someone who had big dreams. I gave it much thought and decided that i would sell the store, which i dead and used the money to rent myself a small apartment in the city. Within a few days i moved there and now plan B was in motion, and that was to get a job.
I did lot of interviews but nothing worked, until my neighbour told me that at the club where she was working they were looking for dancers. I thought about it but had no choice, i could not finish my degree so getting a job was abit hard and the side job i got at a cafe could barely feed me so i decided to give it a try and see where this new path would lead me.