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~Lucas's POV
The moment I dropped Alex off at Bella's place, I leaned back in the driver's seat and just stared at the wheel. He was in love, that much was clearer now. He didn't even try to pretend otherwise anymore or deny the feeling. And honestly? I was a little jealous and envious. Not because of Bella. But because of what they had. Real feelings. Real connection. The bond, the love and intimacy which were Something I hadn't allowed myself to have in a long time.
I pulled out my phone and opened Elara's contact. I hadn't texted her since I left. I gave myself an excuse that it was because I was busy. So busy that I needed to focus on the mission. On Alex. On keeping everything under control. But deep down, I knew the truth: I was afraid, I was scared.
Scared that she'd see through me. She'd read me like an open book.
But tonight, I just wanted to see her. I wanted to feel something other than blood on my hands and weight on my shoulders.
