Anastasia
I didn't sleep very well all night, I tossed and turned and thought what kind of phone call was that?
It didn't end well the previous time..
Sometimes I don't understand how he manages to stay so strong and calm..
Although he looks so harsh on the outside , he is the most gentle and caring man inside.
My man.
My head is already splitting from all these thoughts, it's 4 a.m., and I still haven't even closed my eyes.
Mmm
My thoughts are dragging me to the bottom, forcing me to think, think , and think again
I carefully remove the blanket and get out of bed so as not to wake Leon.
And I head to the kitchen, pour water, and sit on a chair that offers a panoramic view of London.
Hmmm
Fuck
I won't find a place for myself until I find out what's going on there.
Leon doesn't tell me not to worry, I understand that, but I'm starting to worry even more.
The fear of the past is so overwhelming, because I'm afraid of losing it.
I put the empty mug on the table and go back to bed, where Leon is also sleeping soundly.
I snuggle closer to him and nuzzle his neck.
Leon
Again, I'm distracted by the alarm clock that shows 10 a.m.
I feel Nastya's warm breath on my neck and stroke her hair.
There are traces of tears on her face, did she cry?...
Inhaling the scent of her hair, I close my eyes for a moment, thinking that she might be upset.
She's a very sensitive girl and she often worries, which makes me worry about her.
Stress has a very detrimental effect on her, and the last thing I would like to see is her tears.
She's been through a lot already..
Must not...
And yesterday 's call ..
The situation is solvable, but I can't fucking put her in danger again.
I know perfectly well and understand that if something happens to me, then because of her stubborn nature, she will not sit and wait, but will run into the mess for me.
Nastya, Nastya..
I can feel her starting to yawn and wake up
I brush the strands of hair from her sleepy face and see her red eyes.
"Honey?"
- Mm
"Why were you crying?" What upset you? And you didn't sleep?
- Rubbing my eyes, I look up at him and say :
Yes... It's just that yesterday's call knocked me out of my rut and I couldn't fall asleep from obsessive thoughts and then I was completely covered when I fell asleep.
- The sun ...
My little baby..
Look at me.
I gently take her chin in my hand and point it at me.
- My dear Anastasia
My girl, everything will be fine.
Yesterday's call was not the most pleasant, but you will be safe and everything will be in the best possible way.
In a couple of days there will be an event opening new houses here in London
There are not very pleasant people, so my sweet, I really want you to stay here in the room and not go anywhere.
Or better yet , even in another place , it would be more correct .
I don't want to put you in any danger.
I take her cheeks in my hands and kiss her nose.
- Honey, we're going shopping today.
I need to pamper my girl more often , otherwise she 's already thinking about all sorts of bad things .
You can't, my dear, you can't
Anastasia
I look at him with puppy dog eyes and my heart feels a little lighter.
I trust and believe him with all my soul.
And the topic of shopping really cheered me up.
He knows me better than I know myself.
"Oh, Leon, Leon
- Oh Anastasia, Anastasia
Leon picks me up and carries me like a child to the bathroom, washes me and plaits my braid.
And then he brings it to the kitchen and holds our breakfast.
Scrambled eggs with bacon and tomatoes , mm
And my favorite black tea.
When Leon finishes eating, he puts the plates on the table and picks me up and sits me on his lap.
I don't even have time to breathe as he starts feeding me and at the same time kisses my back
It calms me down..