[New York,Queens: Julia's 1st POV]
{11 March: Saturday 06:00}
Where...
Where am I?
What happened? How did I get here? Where or what is this place? Thinking of this question won't get me answers. This ain't my bed but it's okay. Are those medical machine? That means I'm in the hospital but why though, ain't sick.
I didn't know him for long but he's gone. Heck, I didn't even know him for a week even 24 hours but it's painful. Am I crying? Tears.. why does it always happen to me? What did I even do? Why can't I be happy without losing someone?
They leave, they all leave... It doesn't matter what answer I gave to him, he was bound to leave. What did I ever do to you God? What did I do to you?
Who am I to your eyes? Why am I being punished for just trying to find happiness? He accepted me for me.
Why?
~Knock~ ~Knock~
"Good Morning Miss Brown"
Did she wait for me to calm down first.
"Morning Doctor" might as well show courtesy and not lash out.
"Oh, I've got good news and bad news." I wanna hear what's the news.
"The bad news is that you've been in a coma for the last few hours" wait, I was dead. How did I get in a coma? So he affected me that bad. So seeing myself in a wedding dress was me dying but who was the groom?
"The good news is you're healthy and awake" what? The good news is I'm healthy? Healthy? So there's no good news just a figure of speech
"I know you're confused when I say you're healthy. I can see the confusion in your face but let me explain" explain I want to know what you mean
"When you were brought up last night, you were putrefaction" what? What does that mean? Does she mean 'Petrified' but yeah I was. I can't accept his death. NEVER
"Your body was in a state of fermentation and decomposition. You were defunct after that but after couple of seconds or minutes, you showed signs" what the hell is she talking about? Decomposition I understand but what do the rest of the words mean. I'm pretty sure no one talks like that.. without a PhD
"Afterwards, you were put in hospital room and we concluded you were in a coma. You regained health afterwards." That's good news I think
"Let me tell you something, All bodies are healthy and all bodies are not healthy except yours" Now I'm confused and she talks too much.
"Noone is 100% healthy and it's a fact,till now if we don't include the Peak Serum." Peak Serum? 100% Healthy? I thought if a person doesn't smoke,drink and galavanting is 100% healthy
"You see, every human got problems and they put strain in the body. That's why sometimes people who never smoked have cancer or tumors because they're bodies are put in a lot of stresses" I didn't know that but I guess it's understandable when you put it like that since everything is not scientific
"While you were sleeping, you were 100% healthy but now you're probably 99,9% healthy since the frequency numbers changed when you woke up. Probably you're thinking of 'cynical' things" Cynical huh? Well I am doubtful alright but I don't believe he's dead. I don't WANNA beleive he's dead
"Since I'm done doing the check up and everything is alright. You are discharged. Oh, since nothing was done on you and your stay in here is already paid for, you can leave" Wait, paid for? By who? It's probably her and there's no way that bastard would pay for any of us...
I should probably thank whoever paid for me
"Excuse me, can I know who paid for my treatment?" I should probably know and not assume things
"Oh, forgot you were unconscious at that time. It was Emma Carter and she was the one who called the ambulance" I knew it. I should thank her when I meet her... She's been very nice with me and everyone
"Excuse me. Have a good day Miss Brown" and there she goes. Oh, they even put my clothes besides me. So I was already discharged.
Here's my phone. I should probably call him to check on him
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
No
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
It can't be.
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
He can't be dead
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
I refuse to believe he's dead
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
HE CAN'T BE DEAD
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
"HE'S NOT DEAD."
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
"NO! HE'S NOT DEAD!!!"
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
"He can't..."
~Sniff~ ~Sniff~
"...be dead.'
~Sniff~ ~Sniff~
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
"He's not..."
~Sniff~ ~Sniff~
"Dead"
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
~Whimper~ ~Whimper~
『The person you are trying to reach is currently unavailable. Please try again later』
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He's not D.. De... Dead
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Why is it always me? Why me?
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"God, I'm tired. My heart is heavy, and I don't understand why this is happening—but I'm still holding on, even if it's just by a thread. Please, don't let go of me."
~hic~ ~hic~ ~hic~
I should get myself ready.
~hic~ ~hic~ ~hic~
Why are my clothes on the floor?
I should take a shower and leave. No wonder that doctor just did a hit-and-run. I stick a lot.. it's a terrible smell
Yep, I should take a shower but am I taller?
Nah, it's just my imagination
Is there something on me? Why does everyone keeps staring at me. Oh my god, I'm still wearing the hospital gown
Why do they look sad? Oh, I was crying. I probably created a scene.
Let's just take a shower and leave. I don't like it here.
Oh, there's the bathroom. Gotta take a shower.
Great.. now let's get...
Wait, is that me? I'm more beautiful. I knew it... I'm taller... Their are perfect.
So my clothes won't fit anymore. What a waste of money? They'll fit
This shower is nice
>>Outside the hospital>>
This clothes are tight.
I gotta go home but I'm in Queens. At least I can get home with the money I got on me
[3rd POV]
Julia took a cab and headed to Manhattan where her residence is at.
It took her a couple of minutes to get to Manhattan. While she was in the cab on her way, she was stress and contemplating about something.
[Manhattan]
Julia headed to her apartment. The apartment was small for one person to live in. It wasn't big but it everything a person needed and the rent wasn't that expensive.
When she got into her apartment, she took all her clothes off except for her underwear and just lay down.
"They were tight." She said after taking her clothes off.
She thought about a lot of things and decided to call him again but the number doesn't get answered.
She keeps trying over and over again but no answer. She began to cry all over again.
She cried a lot. Seconds turned to minutes and minutes turned to hours until she passed out from crying.
Sometimes the deepest love comes from the shortest encounters. Proof that time has nothing on connection.
>>Timepass>>
Julia woke up at past 19h00 and she hadn't eaten for the entire day. She woke up without feeling to eat. She checked her phone and it was flooded with messages but none from him.
Her 'bosses' kept telling her to return to 'work' and some people asked her is she's sick or okay.
She switched off her phone and sat in silence in her apartment. No lights, no sounds just utter silence and she couldn't hear background noises either.
She sat the entire night without doing nothing and just sitting at the same place.
{12 March: Sunday 08:00}
Julia realises that the Sun is up and didn't do anything last night. She hopefully smile and switch on her phone to check. There were a bunch of messages, few miss calls but none from him.
She became discouraged again and did nothing but sit still, her eyes fixed on a spot on the floor as if it held some kind of answer. The silence in the apartment pressed down on her, heavy and unmoving, like a weight she couldn't shake off. Minutes passed... maybe longer... before she slowly pushed herself up from the couch, her legs stiff and reluctant.
She walked toward the kitchen, each step feeling heavier than the last. The fridge light flickered briefly as she opened the door. A small bowl of grapes and a couple of apples sat on the middle shelf. She reached for the grapes, paused, then let her hand fall back to her side.
Her stomach turned at the thought of eating. The fruit looked fine, even inviting, but something about it... about everything... felt unappetizing... distant. It wasn't hunger she lacked. It was the will. She closed the fridge gently and leaned against the counter, staring blankly ahead. A quiet sigh escaped her lips.
The apartment was still. Too still.
She looked like a mess and she's still in her underwear.
She walked towards her bedroom and just lay down. After some hours of lying down, she remembers that her clothes could no longer fit her. She checked her clothes and found out that most of her clothes are too small. The only clothes that fit her are dresses he have and few jackets.
After she was done checking her clothes, she returned to laying in bed. After a while, she took her phone and decided to call Emma.
"Hey Emma"
Emma didn't think that Julia would call her and was slightly surprised but composed herself.
「Hey Ashley, How are you feeling」
"I'm fine now. I was calling to thank you about what you did for me.*
「It's not a... You're welcome. I'll help anytime... maybe if you're feeling okay, we could grab a lunch.」
"I don't feel like going out maybe tomorrow afternoon if you aren't busy."
「Tommorow is fine... Don't forget to take care of yourself.」
"I won't. Appreciated the gesture you did... Once again, Thank you."
「You're lucky I'm so humble (hehe). 」
"Goodbye"
「Byeee and Ashley....」
"..."
「Let others in.」
After Julia ended the call, she didn't do anything and just continue lying in bed naked. She just looked depressed and said didn't plan on doing anything.
Time passed. Minutes became hours before she even realised, a night came. She never ate anything yesterday and doesn't feel like eating anything tonight.
Every action she thinks of doing feels irrelevant, and every emotion she carries feels heavy. Every noise outside feels distant, the silence in the apartment feels like a scream, and every breath she takes feels like she's dying.
She eventually falls asleep without doing anything. She neither cried not say or thought anywords, she just fell asleep.
[Monday, 07:00]
Julia woke up feeling apathetic—neither sad nor happy, just lacking interest. She decided to take a bath, and while she was in the tub, she fell unconscious. After a while, she regained consciousness and saw that the bathroom was flooded. Luckily, there was a floor drain.
After she finished cleaning herself, she headed to the kitchen. She was preparing a bowl of cereal but became unconscious while pouring the milk, causing it to spill. The entire container of milk spilled onto the floor, while Julia continued to hold the empty container.
Yet again she regains conscious and realised everything. She cleaned everything up and eating her flooded bowl of cereal.
After she finished eating, she picked out a red dress that fit her well and put on high heels. She checked the time and realized that two hours had already passed since she woke up. She decided to watch something, but fell unconscious while watching it and woke up to find that another two hours had passed. She picked up her jacket and headed out, which caused her to arrive an hour early for her meetup with Emma.
After 45 minutes of waiting and drinking a soft drink, Emma arrived at the location. She thought she had come early but was surprised to see that Julia was already there and seated. She saw Julia dressed in a full red dress with high heels and a jacket hanging on the back of a chair.
"Hey Ashley" She said as she walked towards where Julia was seated
Julia followed the trace of the voice and saw Emma coming her way.
"Hey, Emma. You look nice," she said to Emma, with reluctance in her voice but trying to hide it.
Emma noticed that but didn't press on the matter.
"Did you wait long,.. but I was sure I will arrive early."
"Nah, I just got here."
"You look beautiful. I can't believe it's you... You changed"
"Oh, I'm still me"
"No, I'm not talking about that. I mean you literally changed. It's like you're a fairytale princess"
"For real" Julia tries to smile but doesn't feel like it
"What product are you using?"
"None. I just use basic thing with no make up"
"WHAT!!! You're lying"
Julia and Emma talked about a lot of things and they ordered they're food. Julia asked what happened that day when he got killed. She knows that Emma was with her and doesn't have anything to do with it. Emma told her that she heard them talk about it on Wednesday in a call but wasn't that serious. She told her that the following day she heard them talk about sending a message to the 'boyfriend' and Karen was with them at that time.
She didn't know what they were planning or whom they were talking about but it didn't involve her until it happened when they were leaving. She happened to spot three man approaching him and pieced everything together. She tries to signal Julia but Karen was staring straight at her. By the time she thought of causing a scene in the van, it was already far away.
"I'm sorry Ashley. If I wasn't ignorant and talked about it sooner maybe he...."
"Don't say it. It's not your fault and it's good that you minded your business"
While they were talking, a teenage boy in a school uniform entered the restaurant and headed to the counter. He appeared to be 5'11.
He got to the counter and said
"Excuse me, Can I get Lasagna and 4 burgers with French fries on the go, Please?"
[TO-BE-CONTINUE]