He looks at me surprise I probably looked a mess I couldn't look at he but he started talking. " Are you okay" I shake my head YES still not looking at him. "Did I do something tonight? I am so sorry" I looked at him and my heart melted he is so sweet " NO! you didn't do anything it's just personal". "Like what.... SORRY I don't mean to pry but it must be overwhelming if you are like this" and then he makes a face like he remembered something but covers it up then looks at me with sad eyes. "What" he just shakes his head still with sad eyes "can I huge you" yes I shake my head and he runs up to me immediately burst into tears in his arms he just strokes my head and says. "It's okay I got you it's okay" I mumble something and then forget what I said but I feel safe in his arms.
James pov
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I let Alex cry in my arms earlier I had realized what I forgot today is the day his brother died 2 years ago " I miss him" Alex says in mumble that I barely hear but do I instantly know who he is talking about his brother I heard that they were close but they must have been really close for thi - s I get cut off when I see one of his sleeves is up and I see cut's on his arm. Some old but it looks to be 3 new ones I pull back from Alex and brought his arm up so I could see it better Alex realized what I was looking at and yanked away from me with a scared look in his eyes. I was shocked but I needed him to know he could trust me even though I am lying to him about working for Arrow and a double agent. I put on a fake smile to make him feel at ease " do you have a first aid kit" he points to where the bathroom is and I go over to it, I look in the cabinets.
And then the drawers and I instantly stop in the drawer was a blade with blood on it my face fell at the though of Alex doing this to him self for something Kate did 2 years ago my twin sister went on a mission, the mission was to kill Alex Academia Alex was the hacker of the family he was one of the best in the world he had hacked in and stole some of our files but he didn't come so my sister though that killing the next in line was the better. We were 18 at the time and I had just got through training Kate was always better than me with all the spy stuff so she was finished with training at 14 years old. I was a spy but I never killed anyone but to know my sister killing Alex's brother did this to his health makes me hate my family's job I know we stop the assassin from killing but I don't know. I come back out of my thoughts and find the first aid kit I go back to Alex who is on the floor trembling I go over to him and stand in front of him he doesn't look at me until I start talking " Can I touch you" Alex shakes his head yes I take his arm and a liquid on it so it doesn't get infected then I wrap his arm and look at him he keeps his head down to the floor I put my hand on his chin "look at me Alex" he keeps his head down " please look at me Alex" he lifts his head and we make eye contact he has tears in his eyes and it breaks my heart " do you not want to hang out anymore because of ..." he put his head down again I pulled his head up so that he is looking at me " Alex why would I stop hanging out with you" he looks like he is about to start crying again " b-b-because I h-hurt m-myself" he is crying now and it hurts to see him like this " Alex your health is important I would never stop going out with you because of that. He makes a shocked face with tears still in is eyes and hugs me as if I am the air he needs to breath and I understand the feeling we stay like that for a while then he asks a question that makes me stand still " so what are we".