Jiwon looks confused at Silas, "He asked me to accompany him to a ball?"
"You said no, right?" Silas asks, shifting in his place.
"What? No, I said that I'd love to do so. W-why would I not want to?"
"Why would you not- WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO IS THE REAL QUESTION," Silas lets out.
"Whoa, mate, calm down. He wanted me to, it meant a lot to him. He practically begged me to let him escort me to the ball. If it means so much to my mate, of course, I'll do it. It's just a ball after all," Jiwon says, trying to stay calm.
What does he mean by "Why would you want to?" Isn't that the whole part of mating, being there for each other?
"It's not 'just a ball', it's the biggest happening in the vampire world," Silas answers.
"Okay? Only the more reason for me to attend-"
"NO!" Silas interrupts, "No, not only the more reason. You don't get it, do you?"
There was one thing Jiwon did get though, he was slowly but surely getting mad. Why is Silas so fired up about this?
"Apparently I don't," Jiwon answers between gritted teeth.
"They're gonna be the main thing."
"What?"
"We're just attending it to serve as some kind of...kind of trophy of theirs. Do you want to be a trophy of theirs?"
Jiwon thought about it, and actually, he didn't mind. If Minseok was so proud of him that he saw him as a trophy, then that's a good thing. Right?
"Maybe I d-"
"No," Silas interrupts him again, "No, you don't. Oh my god Jiwon, I knew you could be stupid but-" Silas growls.
"How am I stupid because I'm okay with making my mate happy or proud?"
"It's not about making them proud. It's about them showing us to the public eye. They're taking ownership over us."
"And why are you putting it that negatively?"
"Because it is!" Silas yells, "It's not about being happy about us or anything, it's...they just...they want to show us off. Like we're some kind of...kind of circus animal! AND YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE CIRCUSSES!"
"They just want to show off their mates to the world! Don't you want to do the same thing with yours? Oh, wait I forgot. Y'all just like to fuck each other up right?" Jiwon answers, without noticing his hand had balled into a fist. Silas was, after all, bad talking his mate in this way.
"Take that back."
"No. Sorry that your relationship isn't really...ANYTHING, but mine is. I care about Minseok. A lot. And I don't get where this sudden hate of yours comes from.
Just a couple of days ago, even hours ago, you were still willing to sacrifice anything to get that vampire of yours. What's changed? What's changed now that he did show up, even invited you to a ball?
Got bored? Huh? Is it not exciting enough anymore now that there's no chase? Huh? Only want what you can't have perhaps? Huh? No? Then what the fuck is your problem? HUH?!"
"I don't have a problem! I just say I don't think we should let them treat us like a parade float!" Silas bites back, ignoring everything except the last sentence.
"Well, mine doesn't treat me like a parade float! And even if he would, I wouldn't care! You know why? Because I love him!"
"Jiwon you don-"
"And I'm going to that ball! Just as you will, the only difference is that I'm going happily. Maybe you should try that? Maybe you should try doing something for the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with?
This shit is getting exhausting. This game of catch of you both. I don't want to be sucked into it anymore. Leave me and Minseok out of it! Fix your shitty relationship with your shitty mate yourself! Isn't that your job as alpha?
Don't tell me to not do stuff because you suddenly feel like being mad at that dickhead!" Jiwon was now growling.
It just didn't make sense that Silas was acting like this all of a sudden.
Yeah, humans were weird creatures, but how can he suddenly feel like hating someone out of the blue?
And where does he get the courage from to drag his loved one into it. He should sort out his on problems without dragging others into it.
"Ji, I-" Jiwon jerks back as Silas tries to rest his hand on his shoulder.
"Don't. Sort your shit out. Don't reflect it on the people around you."
Jiwon turns around and stombs away. He withdraws to their studio where he sits on the floor behind his desk in the corner.
"Jiwon, let's please talk it out," Silas calls in his head.
"I don't think i'm the one you need to talk your anger out with." Jiwon closes his Mind Door. He didn't want to talk it out
His hands were still in fists. As he looks at them he tries to calm his breathing and slowly opens them.
While looking at his palms he feels his eyes burning up. With soft snicks, he puts his arms around his knees and hugs them close to his chest.
Happy that the studio is noise-cancelling, he starts crying.
And crying harder.
He was sobbing loudly as he caught a smell. He wipes his tears away with the sleeves of his shirt and looks up.
Minseok's standing at the door opening, staring confused at the boy. After closing the door he rushes to Jiwon and kneels down in front of him, pulling him into his warm embrace.
"Honey, everything alright?" Minseok asks between the snicks to which Jiwon responds with a short nod.
"Then how come my beautiful obsession is crying in a corner in a soundproof room? Alone?" Minseok asks as he draws a little back to look at Jiwon. Softly he wipes the younger one's tears away.
"Keep holding me, hyung. Please," Jiwon begs him with puppy eyes to which Minseok smiles.
"I always will don't worry," he pulls him up to his lab and hugs him closely after kissing his temple, "Care to tell me what made you cry now?"