"Can we please take five?" I say, dyspneic. I fall on the mat and try to catch my breath. Harlem literally looks down on me and frowns. "You have asthma or something?" I release a humorless laugh. "No, but I have lungs that are incapable of working at 145 mph. There's no way that you're human." Harlem reaches his hand out. When I reach to grab it, he flips me over on my stomach. I grunt at the sudden impact. "Keith told me that you had past experience in self-defense. Were you up against a sloth?" It's insult after insult with this guy. "Yeah, well Keith told me that you were an ex-MMA fighter who teaches jujutsu, not a miscreant reprobate good-for-nothing shithead. So, I guess we were both misled," Harlem laughs and reaches outreaches his hand again. I don't make the same mistake, and get up by myself.
"He also told me that you know how to spit fire." He grins. I crack my back and roll my shoulders. When Keith told me that I had self-defense classes before the mission, this was not what I envisioned. "Yeah, well I can't insult them to death."
"These gang members are going to play dirty. You're not going to have time to mull over your next move. I only have two days to whip your pretty little ass in shape. Your reflexes are incredible, but sloppy and won't get you far. You're too tense and you're overanalyzing. Keep a sturdy base, otherwise you're going to hurt yourself more than you will me." I take a swig of water and try to keep everything in mind. Or is that the problem? Ugh, I don't know.
"You're a 6'7 muscle tank and you think my base is what is preventing me from kicking you to the ground?" I say, skeptically. "If any kind of fighting techniques relied purely on physique, a woman wouldn't be able to throw a muscled man to the ground. Stop making excuses for your lack of skill." I roll my eyes but get back into position. I'm about to get my ass handed to me again when the door opens. Keith walks in with a raven-haired beauty and a child. The child immediately runs to Harlem. He picks the little boy up and spins him around. "Hey, champ!" He smiles. It's crazy what having kids can do to somebody. According to Keith, Harlem was a brooding man before his wife and kid. Two seconds ago this man was prepared to hulk smash me until his kid came in. The woman, who I can only assume to be his wife, walks up to him. He sets his kid down and passionately kisses her. "Ewww!" The kid whines. The two parents chuckle.
Keith walks over to me. "How is it going?" I give him a stare which makes him laugh. He draws me in and kisses me on my lips. I quickly push him away. "You're going to have to get used to that," he sternly says. "You kissing me isn't the problem. I don't like physical contact with anybody when I'm sweaty,"
"Then you must be having a blast with Lem," the woman says. "This isn't my favorite pastime." I sigh. The kid runs up to me and asks, "Are you Papa's new client?" The puppy dog eyes he gives me are adorable. "It's a rather unfortunate fate." The kid giggles and runs back to his mom. "Why don't we give it a go?" Keith says. I'm about to tell him hell no, but my phone rings. I take it off the floor and pick up Trevor's call. 'Hey, Soren, where are you right now?'
'I'm getting my nails done,' Everybody in the room aside from the little boy, gives me a confused stare. 'When do you think you'll be done?'
'I don't know. A few more hours maybe?'
'Try to get here as soon as possible. Another full moon is coming up and I need to discuss a few things with you and Jason.' I groan. That's not a name I want to hear right now. 'Fine, I'll call you when I'm done.' We hang up our call and I close my eyes for a few seconds. All of this is extremely overwhelming. "Why did you lie?" Keith asks. "People are nosy, especially Jason. If he learns that I'm taking self-defense classes out of the blue, he's going to ask why," I can't exactly use jujutsu on magic. "Do what you want, but make sure that you can keep up with all of the lies. You're doing a lot for a man who is marrying another woman."
Keith smirks. "Why would you go through the trouble of taking down a gang for this guy? Is he important to you?" Harlem questions. Does Jason have a special place in my heart? Truthfully, I can't see that happening. "No, now that I think about it, he and I aren't even that close. We fight most of the time and he's an asshole. But he's marrying my sister and they both deserve to know what they're getting into."
"So, he's not your friend or someone you cherish, yet you're putting your life on the line for him…" Harlem sounds unconvinced, and when he puts it like that, so do I. Saiya and I have never been close. I could leave them to figure it out, yet here I am, preparing to put my life on the line for her relationship. "What can I say, my life has been really boring." This indeed brings a lot of excitement into my life, but it also brings stress. Wasn't I content with my life? The only person you had in your life was Luke. You were celibate, alone, and bored. Now, you have Sebastian, Jason, Keith, Delilah, Luke, and your family. But did I need to make a deal with the devil to make friends? Did such drastic measures have to be taken for me to finally understand that I wasn't where I wanted to be? How pathetic.
"Right, anyway, do you need to go? Harlem isn't done with you yet." I shake the thoughts out of my head. "I have a few more hours on me. Let's just get this over and done with."
I spent the next three and a half hours getting tossed to the ground in multiple ways. But I took my wins where I could get them. I did manage to get Harlem on his ass for a few seconds, even if I wasn't able to pin him and inevitably lost. I pull into the parking lot that leads to Jason's penthouse. I go through the regular check-in and input the security code to enter his house. "Hey, it took you a while," Jason says as I enter the living room. I made sure to freshen up, so it took longer than expected.
"Tell me what I need to know, and I'll be on my way." I dismiss him. The two of us spending time with my family didn't magically make me forgive him. "You can be mad all you want, but you're here." He softly smiles. I roll my eyes and raid his bar again. I take out the same grapes. I throw out a few that rotted since I was last here. "You clearly aren't eating these, so I'll take on the liberty of finishing it," I tell him and sit on the couch opposite him and Trevor. "You can have a bite of anything here. I'm rarely here to eat anything anyway."
"Anyway, let's get started," Trevor says. I pour myself a glass of wine and pop a grape into my mouth. "Jason doesn't have full control of his wolf yet. Shifting under the pressure of a full moon is going to be too much for him to control. According to Jason, you were with him for one of his transformations and didn't get hurt. How did you do it?" Didn't get hurt my ass. "Well, after running for my life, he cornered me in the bedroom. I didn't know it was him at first, but something in his eyes felt familiar, so I called out his name. He became less aggressive after that and fell asleep on me. It was really weird, but I'm just thankful to be alive." I stretch a little to try and soothe my aching muscles. I need a massage.
"Mhh. Very interesting. It seems you tethered him back to reality or his wolf anyway. For any shape-shifting supernatural, our animalistic counterparts are always in the back of our minds. They see, feel, and watch everything that happens. At that moment, Jason's wolf probably recognized you. When you called out his name, both of you experienced a sense of familiarity. Being forced to shift in a stressful environment, or in Jason's case, being afraid and stressed about his transformation, can lead to aggression and disorientation. You were lucky to come out of that situation unscathed. Had that moment not happened, you'd be a torn, decaying body." That's comforting. Jason cringes at Trevor's words. "I highly recommend getting Jason's wolf more familiar with you and anybody who is close enough to him that he doesn't want to kill. You'll be the test dummy. We don't want to overstimulate his wolf or his senses. Jason, you're going to have to become more comfortable with your wolf."
How much more familiar can he get with me? We've worked beside each other for two years and have already been through so much in less than two months. If his wolf doesn't recognize me or my scent by now, he never will! "How are we supposed to do any of this? I'm sure Jason's wolf knows my scent by now. Besides, why do I have to be here for the full moon anyway? He's got you now,"
"Jason is an alpha wolf of a powerful pack. Even if I wanted to stop him, which I do, he could force me into submission. He doesn't have that effect on humans or any other supernatural creature. It only applies to wolves. If you don't want him to rip his bride apart before, on, or after their wedding day, then I suggest you two get to know each other a lot better. Make it so that he can recognize you or your scent even in the most troubled situations. You can try sniffing her, her clothes, or having a signal that only applies to you two. Chances are, he won't be able to recognize your voice, so that wouldn't be the highest on my recommendation list. You could do something that only you would do to him. Literally, anything that helps him remember you."
How much closer do I have to get with this jerk? I don't want him sniffing me or my clothes. "Something that makes me recognize Soren? Aside from her scent, her most noticeable trait would be her offensive words, but you said I wouldn't be able to hear her much."
"Can't we just let him loose in the woods back at your place? Being cooped up in a penthouse sure can't be good for a wolf his size."
"Nymphia would never allow that. He'd go on a rampage and endanger the forest creatures. Besides, that would be far too overwhelming. Jason may have been able to shift with me that day, but it was more luck than it was willpower. His wolf hasn't gotten acquainted with everything yet. Right now, you're the most familiar thing to him."
Of course, I am. This would be a lot easier if Saiya were here. He'd never hurt her and I'm sure he's much more familiar with her than he is with me. "What's going to happen after all of this? Let's say we find your birth and or adoptive parents, we still have to deal with the threat that they were running from. And according to Trevor, you have some great responsibility as Alpha to your pack. Now, correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't his pack on a different planet or earth, or whatever?"
Trevor sighs and glances at Jason. Jason's face tells me that this is something he hasn't thought about. "You'd be correct in your assessment," Trevor says with a solemn voice. "Do you honestly think we're going to crack this case before your wedding day? Not to mention, this is assuming Saiya accepts you in the first place. I'm not trying to lessen our spirits or anything. I just want to make sure that we're thinking of every possibility. Best case scenario: we get your parents back, Saiya accepts you, and you don't have to go to some alternate dimension to rule your pack. Worst case scenario, your parents are dead, Saiya rejects you, we can't defeat this great evil, and you have to leave Earth, which by the way, means the company goes down. I don't want to be that person, but if I have to be to get your head on straight, I will be."
Jason's entire demeanor changes. His spirits are low and his posture is shrunken. "We don't need to find my parents before the wedding day. The most important part of all of this is getting my wolf under control so that I don't hurt Saiya. Once that's done, we can tell her and she can decide whether she wants to stay with me or not. Right now you're the only person who can help me with that. Do you think Saiya would accept me?"
He looks up at me with pleading eyes. It makes me hesitate for a moment. Being that Jason has asked me a similar question before, I'm ready to give an answer similar to my previous one, but I stop and take a moment to truly think about the kind of girl that Saiya is. "Honestly, yes. I do think she would accept you and this crazy world. That's the problem." Jason and Trevor are clearly stunned by my response. "You want her to reject me?" Jason starts off confused, but slowly his face morphs into one of anger. "No, I want you both to live happily. What I don't want is for my sister who has adored unicorns and fairies all her life, to get too deep into supernatural business. I want her to live a normal human life. The same life she's been living. Shopping with her friends, worrying about school dances, partying, getting married, and having kids. I don't want this for her. I don't want her life to be endangered. If you tell her about this before any of these threats are resolved, there's a high chance that she's going to get caught in the crossfire."
Jason stands up and clenches his fist. "You don't get to decide that for her. It's better if she knows what's happening so she can help instead of being ignorant of everything. No matter what, I'll protect her. Regardless if you believe that I can do it." I get up from my seat and approach him. "I'm not deciding anything for her. All I'm saying is once you tell her, there's no going back. I know my sister, Jason."
He gets closer, trying to intimidate me with his height. "And I know my fiance, Soren. I know her better than you in just a year than you have in 21. I've paid attention to her and know who she is as a person." How many times is he going to use my estrangement with my family against me? "If that were true, you'd have never asked me the question to begin with. If you're so sure that you know her so well to the point you're confident that she'll accept you, I guess there's no reason for me to help you! She can deal with this when you tell her!" I turn away from him and grab my grapes and the bottle of wine. I start to storm out before I'm interrupted by Trevor. "Let's not be too hasty now. Right now, this is bigger than marriage. Jason could seriously hurt a lot of people, including your family." Trevor tries to reason with me, but I'm done with the bullshit.
"He can figure it out. Maybe I'll come back when he starts acting as if I'm doing him a favor for nothing in return! That ungrateful son of a bitch is getting no more help from me!" I brush past Trevor, but I'm dragged back. I'm soon face-to-face with Jason. "I'm not being ungrateful. I appreciate your help, but you're being a bitch. If your helping me means I can't speak my mind and have to submit to you, then I don't want it." I snatch my hand from his and put the grapes and bottle down. "You've got some nerve! I'm the bitch because I'm making you face reality? Get a grip, Jason. Not everything is going to go as planned. Don't blame me for your single-minded mindset. And if you can't tolerate me for Saiya, maybe you don't love her as much as you think you do." Jason clenches his teeth.
"Don't you dare question my love for her. She's the most important thing to me. You're not trying to point out every outcome, you're being a pessimist. It sounds like you want me to back out of this marriage. Well, newsflash, it ain't happening." His words are definite and completed with a growl. "Please, spare me the lovesick puppy bullshit. If you really loved her, you would never have put a ring on her finger knowing your very existence is a threat to her life. God, you're a perfect fit for my family. Is it impossible for any of you to admit that you're selfish? You're not doing any of this for her, you're doing it for yourself. You'd do best to take my words into consideration before coming at me all high and mighty."
A growl strong, enough to shake the room, erupts from Jason's chest. "We all need to take a breather," Trevor says. Jason and I glare at him. "Actually, I think I'll leave you both to it," He makes a hasty escape. Jason walks closer to me, forcing me to step back into the couch for more space. He shoves me onto the couch and puts his hand on my chest. The heavily applied pressure makes it hard to breathe. I'm sure he can feel every beat my heart makes. He bends down so that we're face to face. "You want me to take in your words? How can I do that when you so clearly lie to my face," He yanks my hand up. "You went to get your nails done, huh?" I look at my tattered unpainted nails. Right, I forgot about that. I roll my eyes and keep my composure. Sure, he caught me in a lie, but I'm not going to unravel because of it.
"I lied about where I was, so what? You don't need to know everything about me. It doesn't concern you." He pulls out another low growl. He comes so close that our noses touch. "That may be true, but I expect you to be truthful when I ask you something."
"Then change your expectations. Besides, whenever I tell you my truth, you catch a tantrum like a child. You're doing it right now. If helping you means I can't speak my mind and have to submit to you, I'm not going to." I spit his word back at him. Much to my surprise, Jason grins. "If you're not willing to tolerate me for Saiya, then maybe you don't love her as much as you think you do." I get closer and put my mouth to his ear. "I'm not the one marrying her," Jason growls in my ear and it sends shivers down my back, but not because I'm scared. I pull back a little so that we're making eye contact. "You're driving me fucking crazy, calla," The previously used nickname makes me suck in my breath. I'm damn near dizzy when the mark furiously glows. "And it feels like you're burning me alive with this damn mark." My back involuntarily arches into his chest. Jason's eye color changes to gold.
"Fuck, those pheromones coming off you are packing a punch,"
"You have to go before you lose control," I tell him in between pants. My breathing starts to increase, and my body becomes heated. "What's happening?" Jason asks. My nipples grow hard and I have to clench my fists and curl my toes to keep control of my body. Jason is practically shaking. A distressed whimper, much different from his usual growls, arises from his throat. Everything in my body wants to touch him. Wants him to ravish me. "What are you doing to me?" I say in a husky voice. I know why it's happening, but it's so intense. "It's the side effects of the bond. The sexual desires we talked about with Trevor when we first met him. It's what I was talking about when I told you what happened in the office that day." I strain to get the words out as I answer my own question. Just breathing is getting hard.
"But why now? What the hell triggered it?" Jason also starts having trouble speaking. His words come out in labored breaths. "Does it matter? We have to distance ourselves right now," Trevor comes dashing into the room. "Oh, crap this isn't good. This is basically heat for mates to encourage you two to complete the mating bond. Whatever happens, you cannot give in to it. Jason, I'm going to grab Soren. Try to resist the urge to bite my head off." Trevor cautiously says. "What the hell are you talking about?" Jason growls, confused by Trevor's words. "Your wolf sees Soren as a potential mate. If any other potential mate approaches her, he's going to see them as a threat. So I'm warning you right now, be prepared for the urge to rip my head off. It's going to be really strong." I groan in agony as my vagina feels like it's being lit on fire. "What the fuck!" Tears sting my eyes. Jason pulls me in and wraps his arms around my waist. His wolf whines. "Fuck, now I have to fight him off. Soren, this is going to get really messy. Run as fast as you can. It's going to trigger him to chase you, but he's already going to be angry enough at me. Use that as your chance to escape."
I can barely hear Trevor at this point. I weakly nod my head. Being this close to Jason, yet still unable to touch him as my body needs is insufferable. I inadvertently start peppering kisses on his neck. Before Jason has a chance to react, Trevor snatches me away. A loud and angry growl is formed. "Go!" Trevor yells. I make a dash for it, but the farther I am from Jason, the more the mark glows. My body feels like it's being burned from the inside out. I collapse when I'm next to the kitchen. I can see the door but I can't get there. I cry out in pain. I begin to become dizzy. This pain is excruciating. I can't help the tears that fall from my face. I hear the ruckus in the background. Growls and whimpers ring in my ears. My mark burns brighter. "Jason!" My body and voice call out for him. This apparently puts him in a frenzy as the growls become more fanatical. An idea quickly comes to mind and I whip out my phone as fast as I can. I fumble with my fingerprint as my hands violently shake.
I go to my contacts list and press the letter D. Every contact name starting with D appears and I scroll up towards Delilah's. I hurry and press her contact with a shaky hand. I shut my eyes in pain as the phone continued to ring. After three rings she picks up. It shocks me when I hear my brother's deep voice. "Soren? You never call. Is this an emergency?" I open my eyes and see that I accidentally clicked on his contact name that's above Delilah's. "Fuck!" I cry out. My voice is weak and hoarse. "Just make the pain stop," My body shakes as tears blur my eyesight. "What's happening? Where are you?" More glass breaks in the background and the walls shudder. I try my best to crawl to the door, but I can't. Even if I were to make it to the door, I still have to put in the passcode and make it down the hallway into the elevator. The thought alone exhausts me.
"I can't take it anymore," I cry. I've never cried so much up until now. Not when my parents divorced, not when I was taken from my dad, not when mom and I were homeless on the streets, not when I was delivering the twins, nor when mom left me behind for her new life, or when my boyfriend betrayed me and tried to sell me off, hell, not even when Jason tried to kill me the first time. Right now, I was crying as if my life depended on me filling the Mississippi River with my tears. "Don't do anything, Soren. I'm coming right now! I need your location! Send it to me." Damien's voice shakes, showing his concern. "What's happening, is she okay?" I hear Diana's sweet voice from the other side. "I don't know, but it doesn't sound good. Who is with you right now?" Damien asks. I can't tell him. Things will go so far left. "I-" I'm cut off when I feel Jason behind me. His ears and tail are out and he looks like he's about to devour me whole, but not in the way he was going to when we went through this the first time. "Jason-" I whimper his name. "Jason? As in Saiya's fiancé?" I hear Diana ask. "Damnit. What the fuck is going on? If you lay a finger on my sister, I'll cut your fucking tongue out!" Damien screams from the other side of the phone.
"I'm coming with you," Diana says. I hear shuffling in the background. "Like hell you are. Stay here with Hayley." I hear the two kiss before Damien leaves. "Be safe!" Diana screams after him. "Where is daddy going?" Hayley's concerned voice is all I hear before a door slams shut. "Stay on the phone with me, Soren," The next thing that shuts is his car door as the engine roars to life. Jason sprints towards me. It's only when he's so close that I can see his eyes clearly, that I see the concern in them. Jason hangs up the phone and caresses my face. I can barely move my body, but the pain subsides once I'm in his arms again. "Jason," his name is the only thing that can come out of my mouth right now. It's frightening to be fully aware of what you're doing, yet have no control over it. Jason tucks his head in my neck. He kisses my mark and the pleasure that courses through my veins makes me violently shake.
His grip on me tightens and we make eye contact. It isn't long before we passionately smash our lips together. Instant relief flows through my body, but it isn't satisfied. It will never be satisfied until we mate. Jason makes haste as he slips his tongue into my mouth. He caresses my waist, making me moan in pleasure. Any place that his hands touch on my body burns like a raging fire, except this burning doesn't hurt. It feels good, it feels right. I clench my hands in his hair and tug on it. His canines show as his eyes darken with pleasure. He carries me off the floor and walks through the many hallways. My legs wrap around his waist and my arms cling to his neck. His lips continue to ravage mine. Every part of my body craves his touch. I feel like I'm going to burst. He throws open a door and gently lays me on the bed. He kisses down from my neck to my chest. His peppered kisses are sensual and my hips thrust into his. He slowly removes the spaghetti strap from my tank top. He gropes my breasts before sliding my shirt down. All of my senses are heightened to his touch yet dulled when I need to think.
He tenderly sucks on my nipples as he continues to caress my breasts. His slow and sensual pace drives me nuts. "My mate. He chose right. You're absolutely gorgeous. Your moans are music to my ears." I'm taken for a loop when I hear a deeper and huskier version of Jason's voice. When he stares at me, I don't see Jason anymore. "You're...the wolf?" The man in Jason's body softly chuckles and nuzzles his head against mine. "And you are mine," He licks my bottom lip and enters my mouth once more. The kiss is as passionate as it is steamy. My mind goes blank as I sense nothing other than him. We come apart for air. The whole wolf thing throws me off so much that I momentarily come to my senses. "Wait, you can talk? I thought Jason's wolf side had a way of affecting him. I didn't know it was an entirely different being." Does this mean I'm...kissing a dog? Wait, no, that doesn't even make sense. Ugh, I can't fucking think. "I'm not a different being. I'm his desire," He kisses my mark. Another pleasurable wave rolls through my body. "His instincts," He kisses the other side of my neck. "The part of him that acts purely on feeling and nothing else," His teeth graze my neck before they sink into my skin.
When Jason first bit me, the pain was immeasurable, now there's no pain at all. Only desire. My nails dig into his back as I tear his shirt. "That can't be...he loves Saiya," He bites me again on my arm. "That may be, but he craves you. I'm testimony to that. When he's thinking rationally, he loves that girl. When his thoughts are stripped away, the only thing that I can feel, the only thing that I want, is you." My clothes are torn until I'm left with only my underwear. He nibbles on my ear before he trails kisses down my stomach and to my vagina. He wastes no time ripping my underwear off and ravaging me whole. My voice is caught in my throat. I can only see stars. "Let me hear those beautiful moans of yours," His voice is muffled as he eats me out. The vibrations of his voice send my body into a frenzy. I clench the pillows. I'm unable to form words, instead, I release a series of moans and start to pant. He's barely done anything and I'm already about to cum. The effect he's having on my body is absolutely insane. I turn my head and try to catch my breath. "Your pussy is absolutely succulent, beautiful," He grabs my waist and pulls me in closer. "Oh God!" I shout. "Mh, I don't appreciate you shouting out another's name. Shout my name, beautiful."
He dives back in and sticks his tongue inside me. "Fuck!" I draw out my words. "Wrong," he growls. Once again, his voice's vibration pushes me to the edge. He grasps my ass cheeks and uses them to angle me upwards as he moves my legs on his shoulders. The angle gives him better access and I cum right then and there. "Jason!" I shake as I orgasm. Jason completely devours me and the cum that pours out of me. "There we go," his tongue hangs as drops of my cum fall down from it. The visual serves nothing to bring me to my senses. We entangle as he kisses me once more, giving me a taste of myself. His grip on me is strong. He pulls me in as if he needs me to breathe. He pulls away and just stares at me. The admiration in his eyes halts my breathing. The passion is overwhelming. He closes his eyes and lightly growls. "This is no good. He's stirring in the back of my mind. His thoughts are going to take over soon. I suppose my time with you is over. Trust me, dear. When the time is right, I'm going to fully claim you as mine."
After a tender kiss full of promise, he fades away into the back of Jason's mind once more. Jason's eyes turn back to their normal color. He's clearly shocked and I'm left a mess. "You...remember," I state. Whenever his...other side comes out to play, he forgets. Judging by the look on his face he remembers everything he did and everything that was said. "I- What the hell is happening to us?" his voice shakes. Regret shines in his eyes. I don't know what to say until I remember that he and Trevor fought. "Shit, is Trevor okay?"
"Yeah, I only knocked him out, but the rage I felt when he touched you. When he took you away from me. It was unlike anything I had ever felt before. I remember every moment. Every moment that I blacked out, I remember it. When I bit you, what happened in the office, and now this." He looks down at my body as he scans his bite marks. "Do they hurt?" he softly asks. I shake my head. "No, I barely feel them anymore. Actually, I think they're healing," I look down at them and see the holes closing up. It's...freaky. "We've got to get rid of this mark," I close my eyes and exhaustion takes over me. "Trevor told us that the mark can't make us feel. It reacts to how we feel. Soren, I- I don't know what I feel for you anymore. At times you're so insufferable, and at others, I want to hold you and never let go. But I love Saiya, I know I do. So why? Why the hell is this happening?" His body trembles. "I hurt you, I'm so sorry," he apologizes.
"You don't love me, Jason. We have a crazy sexual attraction towards each other, but that's it. You crave my touch. My body. But not me. You're damn right I'm insufferable, and I can't provide you the kindness and tenderness that Saiya gives you. I'm not that good of a person. I'm going to constantly snap at you and put you in your place when I feel like it. I'm going to challenge you every step of the way. Does that sound like the kind of woman you want to be with?" I put my hand on his cheek so that he's looking at me. We can't ignore this anymore.
"No," I ignore the pain in my chest from his response. Why does this man, who has only tormented me, have this effect? I hate what he does to me and how he makes me feel. I feel raw and stripped as if every wall that I've built over these years crumbles when he looks at me. It's not fair. It's not fucking fair. He's done nothing but cause me pain and anger, so why? Why the hell do I keep feeling like this! Tears sting my eyes. I turn away from him and cover my face.
"Soren...we've been talking about how I feel, but what about you? What do you feel for me?" He removes my hands from my face and moves my chin so that I'm looking at him. "Like I said, I'm sexually attracted to you and you make me mad. So damn mad that I can barely think sometimes. I hate you but I don't. You're the one who is insufferable, Jason," He wraps the blanket around my body and gets out of the bed. He digs in his drawer and passes me a shirt. I put it on and try to get out of bed, but I fall. Between self-defense class and whatever the hell went down, my body is finished. I don't think I'll be able to go to the second lesson. "This is a lot on both of us. We should stop," Jason makes his way over to me and lifts me on the bed. His hands stay on my waist for a moment and we exchange eye contact. It's like being pulled into a trance.
We both look away and Jason growls. "No, we're not going to stop because of a hiccup in the road. And we can't ignore whatever this is either. Running away from it all isn't going to help anybody. I don't think you need to become more familiar with me anymore. It's clear that your wolf, or other side, knows exactly who I am. He won't hurt me. Trevor on the other hand, he'd better stay out of sight for a while," Isay. Jason grunts and clenches his fists. "Just the sound of his name makes me mad. This is so fucked."
"Maybe it's because we're both sexually frustrated. I know Saiya is waiting until after marriage to give up her virginity, but maybe you two should speed things along. I'll have Keith to take care of me." I stretch my arms above my head, but I'm pushed down by Jason. His eyes shine gold but retain some of his dark blue hue. "Stay away from him or I'll tear his throat out," It's freaky how I can almost hear his other side's darker voice at the same time. "Oh come on! Both of you can't hate him. Besides, you're not going to like anybody I get with as long as this thing is on my neck," I say, pointing to his first bite mark.
He puffs and pouts. "If I can handle you marrying my sister, you can handle me sleeping with Keith," His eyes shine gold again. I can't help but roll my eyes. "Other men are out of the question. I'll have you submit to me before I ever allow another man to touch you," The other him says. Regular Jason takes over again as the gold in his eyes dims. "That's not what I want, but definitely not Keith. There's something off with him," he says. I tightly grip Jason's arm. "The both of you are absolute cavemen! You're also both out of your minds if you think either one of you can tell me who I'm going to be with. Frankly, It's none of your business or concern. I highly suggest you get that wolf of yours under control. I'd rather have a thousand paper cuts and soak myself in lemon juice before I ever submit to you!"
Jason grins and leans down to my ear. "Was it not you moaning out my name just a few minutes ago? Or am I mistaken?" The other him says. "You're mistaken if you think it's ever going to happen again," He pulls back and stares at me for a while like Jason normally does. He grins and kisses my lips. "I take that as a challenge," A smug grin devours his face as I involuntarily shiver. Regular Jason returns and hops off me. "Damn, I'm sorry. It's getting a lot harder to control him now that he's... awakened?" I angrily blush but brush the little encounter off. "No, It's a good thing that he's more lively. Trevor said that you have to find a balance with your wolf to master shifting by will and having control under a full moon. You just have to get to a point where one isn't constantly dominating the other. It's knowing when to harmonize and when to assert dominance. Thankfully, that's something you have to do on your own. I'm going home," I don't bother to collect my torn clothes.
I walk through the house but still can't find my way. "I'll lead you towards the exit. From here it's two lefts, one right, and then you go straight ahead." Jason walks behind me as I follow his instructions. When we reach the kitchen I see my phone vibrating. I hurry up and grab it. I see ten missed calls from Damien and twelve from Dylan. Damn it all! Damien told Dylan! It's going to be a shit show. "Oh, right. Damien called. How much did he hear?" Jason hovers from behind me. When I feel his breath fan my neck I make distance between us. "He heard a lot. All of it was out of context, but even if it had any, the situation wasn't good. Fuck, we're going to have to come up with a cover story. Crap, I'm way too tired for this."
"We'll tell him we had a fight about Saiya," Jason suggests. "No, you don't understand. He heard you and Trevor fighting. I was sobbing and pleading into the phone. If we say we fought, there's no way in hell they're going to believe that it was a simple argument." Jason rubs his face and I can see everything is weighing on him as well. The speaker by the lock that's on the front door rings. Jason presses a button and picks up the call. "Yes?"
"There are two men out here. They're causing a ruckus and demanding to see you. They want to know if Ms. Heartfelt is with you," Crap. How did Dylan and Damien get his address? Don't tell me they got it from Saiya who got it from Jason himself. Either way, they're here. I was hoping I'd be able to use some of the techniques I learned against Jason if I ever needed to, but how can I possibly have proper form while being as horny as a rabbit when I could barely do it when nothing was bothering me? "Tell them I'm coming down," Jason says. "You might want to change your shirt before you do that. I kind of tore into them," Jason cocks a brow, turns his head, and pulls his shirt to see ten long ripped lines in the back.
"I'll stay up here while you ward them off," I sit on the stool and scroll through my phone. Jason goes back to get another shirt. How the hell am I supposed to have normal sex after this?