It's been a few days since I went looking for a job, and I still can't believe I actually did it, is that...me working? the laziest guy in the world has been looking for a job by himself? Wuaa...that's really something to admire, it's not like working is the best thing in the world, we only do it either out of necessity or to contribute to the society where we live, especially in the country where I was born is a tradition and even a very present rule in our daily lives, everything we do is for that purpose, we study since we were kids, why? Well, for the same purpose, to work somewhere even though we are not interested at all, looking at it this way, with the passing of time it is a topic that becomes very present, why do I say that? Because I have the same thought, although different, if I would like to go to study, I feel that spending time there is the best stage of your life, but what comes after, is 1 of 2, or you are very passionate about a job that you do not even see it as such, or on the contrary, you see the work as a heavy task, but mandatory that you must fulfill, because in the position in which I am now, I want to work to not be considered a nuisance or to be considered one, since if I don't do anything productive also with my life, well then what am I born for, if I don't do anything that I even like, then what am I here for, you must not necessarily have a great or huge purpose to be born with, to be the chosen one, to be born to fulfill such action in history, not for nothing, as long as you like something a lot, as long as you have something to worry about, to want, be it the slightest thing, it is your reason you found to keep on living.
『Do I need a reason to live? 』
『That's right, as I told you it doesn't have to be the great universal or important task that you are given, just live your life, you will know a lot of things, and among all of them there you will decide what is the reason why you want to live one more day 』
『With that one reason to live...but really, you need a real reason to live? Isn't it enough that you are already just alive in the world?』
I was having a chat with a little person in my room, you know it is common that while I am in my thoughts, many times I talk out loud, and among all the times it happened, as it is happening since the beginning, someone ends up listening to me and also decides to join my silly thought of the moment. I was first finishing making my bed, to later take care of how to start my day to day, first things first, I have to be aware of the plants I have, I was opening the window to see how the day is, yes, it is noticeable that we are in spring.
『I like that you are very questioning, well, I don't deny that it is wrong just to live in the world for no apparent reason, I am just saying what is the point of living if you are not clear yet, the reason why you want to go on with one more day of life 』
『Well many live with the mentality of surviving, that's the simplest thing they all have in common, besides the while you stay alive, you get to know many things as you said, it's not a waste of time nor do you go with a lost course, I say that in all that time you just go searching or you will find yourself something that finally you have more reasons to keep on living』.
To that same point I also wanted to arrive, it is not wrong to live without a reason for a while, it is necessary for many to have your own time until you find the reason why you want to continue living, I for my part my reason why I want with all my strength to continue living, is to see my loved ones again, return to my world, return to my true home, that is what I have very present now, and for that reason I am willing to do anything to achieve that goal, of course and if it is at my disposal, not to harm anyone.
『So I could say that I have always lived with a reason since I was born! 』
『Eh? what are you saying? You were already conscious since you were a baby? That practically makes you a Gifted, which if you ask me, is kind of hard to accept 』.
After cleaning some insects that you must encuando appear in my plants, I clean the soil so that there is no residue and everything is correct, although I still do it according to what I saw on the internet, I should really ask Mero for advice for these situations, there is still compost in the soil, perfect, I took a bottle of water that was in my room and went to water it to the plants. Listening to my companion, yes I am surprised, after all we talked about her.
『So you do remember everything? 』
『Nothing!! *happy*』
To this I could only laugh because it was something I saw coming, yes, the cases in which someone remembers what they did as a baby or even waking up in that stage of their life, are very exceptional cases, for privileged people or with pure talent in many occasions, but most beings do not remember that stage, I talked to Mia days ago, and we concluded that the only way to have it present is when we are not in that role of being the baby, if not your maternal or paternal caregiver who is all the time aware of you.
『In conclusion, you need someone else to tell you about your actions that you don't remember, like the parties where there is beer and drink, and the next day your classmates tell you that you acted very different 』-『That's the only way you also know a part of you that you didn't know about yourself』.
Or also another conclusion I wanted to say, is that you have to be very gossipy with the other person, but I think that would ruin the atmosphere, I already finished watering my plants, but at that my companion stood next to me, and with her only smile she was glad that still the plants in my care are in good condition, well that's obvious, they are in my care, it will be a pride to have them as little ones, and thanks to my help to see them grow like all good plants! *proud*.
『I'm sure they'll remember how you took care of them when they grow up *smiles* 』
『You know they're plants right? They're not living things... eh? ah! no!』
At that moment because of how silly I thought my companion's words were, I quickly realized my mistake, but it was too late for me the nonsense I just said, where at this my companion with her wing outstretched, was passing by to touch the plants I am taking care of, already sprouted some seedlings around them, just like they are starting to come out little buds to the Daisy and the Dahlia.
『If they are going to keep in mind that you are the one who dedicated your time to take care of them and that one day they will become big and strong, and that is very easy to know, that is love. -『Love makes you keep in mind important moments of your life, love makes you don't forget a lot of things, just like love makes you like a lot of things, and that's why I can say that I have my first glimpse of the world since I was born! 』
My companion happened to look calmly and serenely at the sky through the window, to this I will only say that I was captivated from this moment, like that moment that I should not say anything else, and just look around me, just see what I like at this moment.
『I remember the feeling of the sun on my chest and wings, I remember the soft leaves I stepped on and lay down, I also remember the meals I ate as a child, I also remember the coexistence I had with my mother and with my hometown, do you know why I say that? Because when I experienced the same thing again when I was much older, it brought me an air of nostalgia for different things I had already done before, although it was my first time according to my thinking as you said that at a certain age we are already conscious, for me it was not like that, I could feel that I was already knowing everything I had already known a long time ago, since I opened my eyes, took my first step and spread my wings, I remember with much love all that, don't you think it is incredible that we all go through the same thing? 』
『The same? me too? no no no no, I don't remember anything from when I was a baby, nor did I know anything since I awakened my consciousness 』
『Seriously? how weird? then, why did you know that your mom was your mom?』
『That's because...huh?...』
Wait...he's making me dizzy with that question, huh? how do you answer that? is he referring to my mother? my real mother? because they have a separate story they have about me...huh? What? at my companion's question, which turned out to be simple, for me who was looking for him more deeply, I really didn't understand him, and for my bad luck this time, I think it was bad for me that I was more inquisitive than usual.
『Why did you know that your daddy was your daddy? Why did you know that if you fell it hurt, or that if you drank milk you liked it, how did you know that day and night existed, how did you know that there were good people and bad people, how did you know that person you didn't know at the moment you met him you wanted to be always by his side』
My fellow Harpy was really killing me with her questions, although these ones if easier to answer than the previous ones, I told her if she wants me to answer her the scientific way, or if she wants to hear my honest answer.
『I want to hear your words, because that's what matters to me right now 』
*reddened* That she said that in a serious and calm way, if made me feel very deep little things for her even more than I already felt. To this I was blushing and didn't really have a clear answer, but if she wants to know what I really think about why we already know and remember everything since we were born, my only answer would be.
『Because...it matters to me and will continue to matter to me for the rest of my life...*red*』
That was the only answer I could have come up with, we remember everything and have awareness of what surrounds us, because it "matters" to us and we know it is very necessary for our day to day life. To this Papi, my partner, my friend Harpy, who heard me talking alone in my room and decided to join me, was with an amused smile, I thought it was symbolic that I got the answer right, but it seems it wasn't so.
『I thought you would say the same thing as me M-nii-chan, but I see it wasn't like that, but anyway I liked your answer, with that we care, yes, I care a lot about all of you and what surrounds me, and you know why? Because I love all of you *smiles*』
Before Papi's answer, I could finally see clearly what he was referring to, of course...because I didn't have it in mind before, there is a feeling and power that is capable of breaking all the barriers that are crossed, and that would be love, or at least that's how Carmis considers it, as you know, he is a faithful devotee of pure and sincere love. But Papi is so right, love is what makes things matter to us no matter if we know them or not, it makes us remember every sensation we experience because it made us happy in its first instant, I am sure even though I have not seen her grow up, that Papi was really born and she was very happy to experience the world in her first time.
『And from what I can see, you lack love M-nii-chan *happy* 』
『Do I lack love? I may not be the most loving guy, but if I have to go to the extent of a certain friend I know, well...how annoying and irritating would it be』
『I don't think it would be annoying and irritating, I think it would be something that many people would like, although it is understandable that you haven't quite understood, you are still a little boy, but just like me who was also a girl, love will make you see a thousand things, you will appreciate him and want nothing bad to happen to him, and you will always want to be next to his side, I am glad I got to this point in my life, I have no regrets *smiles* 』
Papi to this became the most beautiful person I could have met in my life, here it no longer has to do with physical tastes or anything, the just talking to her and spending time getting to know her better, osea...I never thought to have this kind of conversation with her, but really, I'm glad I got to this point in my life too, if it was all to meet such a person that mattered to me now and forever.
『Although I said it before, now I am not very mindful if I will be the person who will give you that love that you are missing, you what do you say M-nii-chan, do you want it to be me still or will it be someone else? 』
!!!!....But!!!!...You can't come out with this Papi!!!! After everything you said you really plan to end it this way, this literally seems like a confession, of course I want it to be you!!!! Someone else then!!!! well!!!!...maybe it is someone else...At this Kimihito went in person to my room to tell us about breakfast, where he opened the door calling out to me, and upon finding Papi he also gave him his respective morning greeting.
『Breakfast is ready, I see that you two are getting along better and better, I'm glad *smiles* 』
『Husband!!!』
At this Papi didn't take long to throw himself against Kimihito, who had no choice but to receive her in his arms or else they would fall, he didn't know why, but Papi was preening his head on Aniki's chest, she looked very happy and said to him.
『I love you so much husband! I'm glad I met you that day! *happy* 』
Kimihito didn't know why Papi was like that, although that's common too, he's already used to Papi acting like a little girl every time he sees her, he wasn't annoyed or confused, he was just happy like every day, where Aniki responded.
『Yes, I'm glad to have met you too Papi-san 』
Kimihito also told me to go to breakfast, where I told him that I will go later, I do not want to break my morning routine, I have to make my prayer in the Tokonoma, where Kimihito commented that this morning he made hot cakes, which caught my attention. Ah, hot cakes are one of my favorite breakfasts, and one of the first desserts I learned in elementary school. At this Kimihito was closing the door and Papi was leaving with him, but among the joy he was having, he didn't forget about me, and with a teasing smile he said to me.
『By the way M-nii-chan, you must study *smiles*』
!!!!...I guess he means from before, it's not that I'm dumb, I had a good education, I just forget some details. Now if Kimihito and Papi were leaving while the harpy was commenting on the funny thing I said about the plants, to see them happy to leave was...To this again I was alone in my room, I should be sad...that why? At this Rino finally appeared and only passed by to look at me, but at this I was only kneeling on the Tokonoma, with the Kanji for: Cheer up in the middle. I closed my eyes and only asked for one thing.
『Today I must also make an effort』.
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Now I was in the courtyard of the home, I had already had a view of here, but it's amazing every time I look at it closely, this more than just a courtyard, it wants to become a beautiful home garden, I'm still amazed that all this was made by Mero, now I understand even more the reason why he gave me flowers, right, I am running out of fertilizer for the plants, that is also one of the reasons why I came here, and I will also take the opportunity to be guided a little more about the care of the plants, seeing the first buds of my Daisy and my Dahlia, I really want to see them come to bloom, I do not know when that day will come, but I really want to see them bloom, for the cat's ear, although I took care of it as much as I could this time, I could notice its rapid change compared to other plants, maybe I am doing a good care, because in the short time since I am taking care of it, it has grown a little, I am very happy about that, I hope it is one of the first to bloom, although I think it is not that kind of plant, I guess it will be to see it in its adult form? I guess it will be to see it in its full size?
But looking at the garden that Mero made in the patio, it really is beautiful, there is a great variety of plants, ah! Look, just here are Margaritas and Dahlias that he gave me previously, although I also see that he has plants like...and this other one that are...and we must not forget about....
『I'm sorry, I don't know how the plants are called...』
At this I heard a laughter behind me, where it was Mero who just wanted to see, first we greeted each other again in the day, where before my ignorance, he would do me the favor of telling me again how they are called, yes, it is not the first time this happens, I'm really sorry for forgetting their names.
『Don't worry, I'll be here to teach you as many times as it takes *smiles* 』 -『First let's start with the simplest thing, this plant you see here what is it called? 』
He showed me a section of very beautiful plants, some had already bloomed while others were still in their bud, the truth is that if was very easy to recognize, although they are like roses but not the typical roses we know, but I know they have an almost similar name...ah!!!! ah!!!....
『They were roses, weren't they? 』
『Well done!!!! Yes that's right, these are rose bushes, the good thing about rose bushes is that they can bloom at any stage of the year, they are used more as a decorative ornament for your home, if you can notice it is the one that is closest to the wall, and that's because even though it is small now, it still has a lot of growing to do, it is a rose bush vine』
『A vine? So that's going to keep growing and expanding taking up quite a bit of space, yes it will look pretty, but not that the vines are strangling the other flowers around it? 』
『These are not, they are the harmless kind of vines, as you see they don't have tendrils』
『Trils?...』
『Like a pigtail, tangled, coiled, that's what makes it strangle other plants by suffocating them 』
『Oh yeah right!!! I'm not going to forget that! Again...』
『The only thing I have to worry about is that it doesn't overshadow the other plants around it, that it doesn't steal their light alone above all and that it doesn't cover them, my job is to regulate it and cut it back little by little if I see it's overdoing it *smiles*』.
I understand, though that sounded like a threat with a tender face, like a daycare childcare provider telling the biggest one not to overdo it with the little ones.
『On the other hand we have the Geraniums, it is also an easy plant to take care of and also its flowers are very colorful and very beautiful, the only thing you have to do is water them a little too much in the times of high heat and ready, they are plants that get along very well with the sun mostly, and of course they are durable, you can take them for a ride on a huge desertic road and both will be in perfect condition』.
『How pretty, I think it would be perfect for someone who is starting to take care of plants, although I don't see the point of going for a walk with a flower, unless you love it very much』.
『Here on the other hand we have the Hydrangeas, as you can see this one here because they make a duo with the Roses that is next to it, Hydrangeas are plants that need to be in the shade or semi-shade, they don't really need much sun, they are easy to care for just like Geraniums, and their flowers as you can see』
『Incredible! They are like white purple! how pretty』.
I had to kneel down to get a better look at them, and yes, they are very pretty visually and color wise, they look like something out of a fantasy story, although I understand what he meant he makes a good duo with the vining roses, it gives him shade but also gives him hollow spaces where the sun comes in and he gets enough sun rays for his growth. He introduced me to the other flowers he has in the garden, such as the Tulips, I really wanted to see one in person, I went to touch them and it is incredible, they are like wine glasses, or at least it gave me that feeling, I could also see the Dahlias and Daisies that are growing in the garden as well, this is really impressive, there was more space in the garden, where Mero passed by to tell me about it.
『On the other side, on that free wall, I was planning to plant Glycines, these are also climbing plants, when they become adults their leaves are very pretty, plus they have the characteristic of being drooping because of how huge they become. They are able to withstand frost. Also in this other free space I was thinking of planting a lemon tree, I think that would be my biggest challenge, because it takes 3 to 5 years to bear fruit 』.
『That's a long time 』-『But why didn't you do it? it's a good space that's left over here 』
『Instead of doing that, I better come up with an idea, which is, grow vegetables! 』
To this I could clearly understand, for sure I already had the idea long before to grow the Glycine and Lemon Tree, but seeing how much you spend on food, this is your way of cooperating at home, which I don't think is bad at all. To this I could see that the soil is not yet prepared, it is necessary to plow it and purify the soil, no...give nutrients to the soil!!!! Yes, that's right! Do you see that if I know a little bit to the plants?
『What I want to grow are tomatoes, lettuce, peppers, cucumbers, peppers and while I'm at it with the peppers, I can also harvest chili peppers so as not to lose the spiciness』.
Yes, I think that if he organizes himself very well, Mero will be able to grow all this in the space that is left, although it is good, on the one hand some decorative plants and I suppose also medicinal, and on the other hand vegetables that will give us sustenance in the food, now that I think about it, if he thought of almost everything Mero.
『Good! Then while we're at it, I can take the tools and start preparing the land, I'll start plowing it! 』
To this Mero was very happy, saying that he appreciates my help, to this I asked him why he didn't ask others for help before, especially Aniki, I think he would have accepted without bother, but Mero commented that he doesn't want to give her any more chores and trouble after all she already does for all of them and the household. He doesn't want the free time he has to study or rest, to interrupt him to make him do physical work.
『And why didn't you ask for help from the others, they would have been a great help, Cea would have been a great support 』
『Yes, I thought so too, but...』
『But? 』
『I wanted to try it on my own first, I wanted to give my support on my own...』
Ah, what was that with, she didn't ask for help anymore out of pride, knowing that she was let's say one of the causes of the household's financial problems, she wanted to repair her mistake on her own. I understand, although I don't see how she could do it, with her wheelchair it would have been very difficult, she could have fallen and hurt herself. This encouraged me to help Mero, I took the plow with more strength and started to give the first nail in the ground! And I could see that there were traces, or rather, traces already in the earth itself.
To this I gave the first nail to the ground, either because I was motivated, I did not feel the tiredness at all the first minutes, it is more, it makes me impressive that I am advancing a good stretch, I have no idea how it is done, but thanks to the indications of Mero, little by little I am doing a good job, as we are in Spring the sun is not so strong, but if you exercise or you force your body, like everyone you will start to sweat and get tired.
『Right! Hey Mero! I'm already running out of fertilizer for my plants, could you give me some of what you have? 』
『Yes, no problem, I'll be preparing it for you in a baggie 』
『And also one more thing, I think I am doing a good care with the plants you gave me, I have been researching on my part and I have learned the basics, the results I have now is that my Daisy and my Dahlia already gave their first buds, they are small but it really made me happy to get to that point on my own 』
『That's amazing Young M, I congratulate you *smiles* 』
『But what I am most proud of, is the Cat's Ear, with the short time I am taking care of them, it is the one who has developed the most, it is bigger than it was small, I am sure it will be one of the first to reach adulthood than the other plants』.
『Well, that means you just successfully took the first step with your plants』.
『Eh? 』
『Dahlias bloom in Spring or Summer, as you started to take care of them in early Spring, only in Summer you will be able to see them blooming, in Dahlias it takes about 3 months to bloom, that means it will also bloom at the same time as your Daisies if we take into account the current dates. While your Cat's Ear, normally takes 3 to 6 months to grow, it can even take a year for them to become adults, or in the worst case, wilt or never grow at all, that depends on who and how you take care of them 』.
To this I was still plowing the ground, that information I didn't take into account, but I see, as I guessed, then the Cat's Ear is still the hardest to care for.
『Good timing you tell me, let's put your Cat's Ear in a separate pot from your Margatira and Dahlia, from this point on it needs different care. It is a very fussy plant, you already look tired, let's leave it here, bring your plants and I'll help you change the pot right here *smiles*』
To this I was sweating and tired, I was with my sleeves rolled up, my hands are shaking, but looking at that I advanced a quarter by myself, if made me feel happy for my effort. To this I paid attention to what Mero told me, I returned not only with the plants and their pot, but Cea was also with me, when I saw her and found her, I asked her for help about plowing the land, who gladly accepted, besides she was also the one who helped me bring the pot with the plants in it.
『Well! Leave it to me, in my hometown it is customary to plow our land for our crops, delicious vegetables came out and we all shared, here too rich vegetables should come out for everyone to share! 』
As expected, the strength between me and Cea is huge, plowing the land for her was easier, she finished in a jiffy, to this I helped Mero to take the cat's ear out of the pot and put it in a personal and individual one, just as I arrange the previous one where they change the 3, so that now only the Daisy and Dahlia end up occupying all the space. And while we were doing this Mero asks me.
『And how are you doing with Papi? Is everything going well? 』
『Yes, everything is going well, I like him to play along with me both in my nonsense and in my weird stuff that I play alone 』
『But was there a strong breakthrough? something that makes it clear to him that he likes you? 』
『It was more like the other way around, every time I spend time with her, I like her more and more Papi...』
『I understand, you go at your own pace, that's fine, but you may have already noticed that Papi is to understand at the first time when you tell him clearly, although that applies to everyone, if you say it openly to everyone they will understand, but with Papi you have to say it over and over and over and over again for him to keep it in mind』.
『I have to declare myself several times to Papi ????*red* 』
『You have to tell him daily 』
『Daily????!!! 』
『All the time 』
『Ah...I think I'll die of embarrassment before anything actually happens 』
『It's not that hard to express what you really feel to that person, of course if it's her in particular, you'll understand as time goes by 』
It's not like she does the same thing all the time, I don't think I have seen her tell Aniki that she loves him all the time and on a daily basis as she says, is she making a joke? But seeing her so calm and serene, I feel like if I ask her, if she will be able to do it at this time.
『Ready, here is your Cat's Ear and your Daisy next to your Dahlia』.
I already had my plants ready each one as it should be, although at the moment of seeing alone the Cat's Ear and seeing the other plants in company, it made me feel bad because now my Cat's Ear is not going to have company anymore.
『I guess it's just you and me now.』
To this Cea finished plowing the land at last, to this if it was just what was needed, Mero was happy and thanked her companion, but Centorea commented that if she needs help, to just say so, to this Mero only responded with a.
『It was my pride as a woman *smiles* Thank you Centorea-sama』.
To this I stayed a while longer to listen to Mero on how I should take care of the Cat's Ear from this point on, it was very curious this moment, since Cea sat back on her horse knees and if she listened interested in the subject, all this care if must interest the girls a lot. When I finally understood everything, I was thanking Mero, and before retiring, the mermaid also made a last call to me saying.
『Young M, you should study harder 』
!!!!!!...Yes...I have to keep it in mind, but seriously, I'm not stupid, don't think that I don't have studies, I mean I don't want to study now but don't take me as an airhead please.
I was telling Cea that if she can help me to return my pots to my room, she took the big pot and the compost, while I was taking the Cat's Ear personally. And when they were finally back in my room, in the window itself, it was even clearer to me, I'm going to make them grow strong and big!
『M-dono, do you want to play on the console for a while? I really want to challenge you! 』
And with Cea's call, I was going to his room to hang out playing, it wasn't a wasted day, it was an interesting day, well, I hope to continue with this routine for a while longer.
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